so called Salad `

There is no time provide today
there is also no date to tell
no more weather report as usual as well
because today my mood is duper poor
and I am no mood to check today's date . the time now and the current weather.
anyway
Who Care rite ?

these few days rush for the integrated project
and I am so moody to do this kind of thing
This time I din put much confident on it
it is because I have no idea and once again I don't wish to spoiled the art work
I am so damn worry to spoiled the group work because I used to re-do and re-do
one more thing I don't know I just lost confident this time
I don't dare to tell out my idea and yet I have no idea also
damn myself and my stupid small brain
I am so damn admit myself not enough creative and one more thing
I am scared to break out the box
I am dare not to think out of the box
Thats limit my design and I knew it but can't do anything ..
need more energy to help myself
really

anyway
this coming friday ll be the presentation
and the more interesting part is
coming Saturday is my Malaysian Studies final exam
I am totally no idea what will I answer for it
because I never listen a word from the lecturer
and I too long time never memories anything
No idea will it be ok for me to take this kind of exam
which is about 50% for my sem result
wOootz `
I have no idea how to face it anyway

Besides these disturbing assignments and exam
there is another final project for me
I have to do a A1 coloured canvas for Mr Foad
he is incredible in drawing
and I want to thanks him for my half sem result
I think it make me feel better
but yet I know I am going to spoiled it in this another half of sem
I choose my mum as my subject matter for my final project
and I think either one of them or both ll kill me for sure

Once mentioned about my mum
I think of my dad
who currently sick
and need to do operation next monday
6 days left
and I hope everything go smooth
one more important thing
I need 10 B+ doners on 5th November morning for my dad to do operation
it is because my dad need FRESH blood
thing to remind is
We are just need B+ type blood
no any AB type or O type
I know what are u guys thinking but CANT . sorry . it won't help my dad with this
and for those who can't appear at SJMC at 5 November morning . Don't give me a fake hope and make me disappointed again.
I know you guys is trying to help but it may make me feel worst to give me a hope den soon give me a problem to think of and den come with disappointment.
Anyway
Help me to shout out ..
I need B+ donors at 5November morning at Subang Jaya
for those who interested
you need to go SJMC twice,
1st time do screening and second time donate on the bypass operation date, 5th November, 8.30a.m. until afternoon or 10.30a.m.
It may delay for certain reason.
For whom is willing to donate, please go to bloodbank in SJMC, 5th fLoor, outpatient bLock, and mention my father name.
Thanks a lot !!

Please do not hesitate to contact me as well
Waiting for your good news !! `

* I hope papa will recover soon and have a happy, healthy life *

Besides,
I am talking about today
hour ago
chicken angel asked me to check out the email sent by Rick
I read the email and I am speechless
Yess
I got think of switch to The One Academy
but you know
I can't afford to do this
I need Degree to get higher salary
I knew the dark side of the Bostwana people and I am scared too
but what to do
I have no choice since my family is not that rich as others
even I take loan it may burden me as well
because I may have to return more and get Diploma only
since I can't afford to study oversea as well
so
I Don't think I can switch college anytime I want
I Can't . not I Don't want ...

Sigh
there are so problems to face
and I don't know how long I can stand for it

I am tired
you know ?

Everything complicated

1810O7 . Thursday . 0346a.m.

I am now pressing my elder sister, Jamie's keyboard
she kindly lend me her laptop
and take the risk
cause I may spoiled her laptop
who know rite

for Jamie
I do really want to say Thank You
because she really gives me many thing
like a desktop and a camera
It do remind me about my eldest sister and bro in law too
cause they bought me my 1st camera phone
LOVEs them lots

and For sure
my parents
they are the one who sacrifice most for me
so can't really tell out what they gave me
cause it is too much to tell
and too long to list out

These days very complicated
and this holiday i not really enjoy it
cause everything also not yet be done
and many thing need to finish up
kinda emergency
really

I still remember some words from my friend
i do agree but I think different people different opinion on some other thing
for sure i din tell out because i think the conversation is open for settle that problem but not for argue on some point that I agree or not
summore it not really related to the main topic

u know
my good friend who from gang - sTarz said
if we know the ' secret ' should tell out to settle some problem
we should say out but not keep it as secret
u know
i do agree her point
but i wont do as she said
because for myself
I got different opinion about this
i think if i tell my friend my secret
i want her to keep it as her own secret
I don't wish others know
and thats my secret
she asked to keep it so she should not spread it out or tell it out
maybe this point is different for different people
but sincerely and honestly
I not want to argue on this point
just want to share my feeling and express it out
i dont think people should do as what they think is rite
cause
u can't decide for others
really

everything back to Normal
and gang - sTarZ is still gang - sTarZ
we still are 16 people in a group
we still LOVE each other deeply
and I feel sorry
I may not care enough
but i do care about
gang - sTarZ for life
* sweet *

something happened actually
and i don't know the way to handle it
I might not handle it nicely
cause i really out of idea
I don't want change anything
and deep in my heart


I LOVEs my family as well
I HEART gang - sTarZ for sure
the only one i WANT is myself

Last nite I went to temple with Dor . Kuso . Li wuen . Duck . Jasmine and Chu En .
and we went to Lemon tree and Relax cafe yum cha
I met mi xiao
this kawan don't know disappear for how long d
how surprise i saw her today
and den i met other friend also
really dunno how to react actually
with a little bit guilty
and bLur
no idea what to do
sometimes I do remember back the moment we had
cause cLose friend always have their memories also
I really do appreciate her as my bestie last time
without any reason
I leave and left no any contact number
Yesss i do feel guilty
but i know what am i doing actually
ya know sometimes i know how complicated i am
as what i told yc
dont ever belief me
really
because I also don't know the next second
will I betray or hurt myself
so how I guarantee you to trust on me ?
I can't
cause every next second i don't know what ll happened
so don't
please don't trust on me

complicated
I always want to be simple
but turn out like
I am the most complicated one ..
really

ComPLicATeD `

p/s i am so damn sleepy . until an level

signing off,
41

gang - sTarZ

gang - sTarZ `
is form by different alphabets
some may same
some may not
but we met each other
come across and stick together
to form a word
and it is a promise among us

simply Promise

_____________________________________________________________________

Today I plan to post up something like " N hours later I'm home " or " Hope for mum cookiNg "
but when I am signing in the account ..
something happened and I can't manage to post up something like that anymore ..
but I want to tell the whole world

I HEART EVERY SINGLE ONE of GANG - STARZ ~


LOVEs,
- gS - Tendollar

Before the journey ..

131O07 . Saturday . unknown weather

1540p.m.

Today I wake up at 3p.m.
I am shocked when I looked at the cLock `
First time sleep until so late
and tell u secretly
chicken angeL is still dreaming
LOL

People usually went home yesterday or Thursday ..
and I think most of my friends having good time at home
too bad I still in G'dom
kinda far from my sweetest home
and my lovely family
all has to blame myself not buy the ticket earlier
and force to go back only at tmr 4.30p.m.
* sigh *
never mind
at least I am going back soon
24 hours 45minutes to go ..
( now is 15.45p.m.)

Yest beL went to LUCT
she plan to go out with chicken angeL
they went the Curve
and had nice and delicious meals
Too bad I am not going
because I want to finish my assignments
so I am able to enjoy my holiday at home

but end up I slept for the whole day
raining cats and dogs
I dare not to open my computer
LOL

Oh goddamn it
I miss home crazily
hope to see my family soon
and all in my mind is delicious FOODs

can't wait for the gathering too
gang - sTarZ `
I miss euu !

p/s 24 hours 40 minutes tO go ..

LOVEs,
41

SICK of

091O07 . Tuesday . Sunny day

1517p.m.

Firstly
I would like to talk about my Life Drawing lecturer
He is awesome, he can draw really well
Today he showed us how to use those painting technique.
Honestly I do feel sleepy when he was showing us
but I simply HEART his technique
Again . He can draw really well
like really

Everything was going fine until I went back G dom
before that everything is good
I had a good chat with chicken angeL `
and we talk about last time
share many memories
and Today meeting with Summer is cancel
my group leader, Quin suggest make it on tmr
and every single one of us also think that it is a great idea
since none of us done the sketches
LOL

but thing never perfect
when I went back G dom
still with the GOOD mood
I saw something really freak me out
I saw keys on my bed
I like totally " ngong " already ..
Then chicken angel take it and saw the number is A-5-01

We like " what the hell is going on? " ..
and I think we must go management there
turn out we get the answer is
The management people went in our room purposely want to test the wireless

Ok . here the climax part of this post
but for somebody really mind on RUDE words
please
close the window and do not continue read my post
Sorry for this ..
and here we go

I try to control my angriness in front of them
and once I went out from the office
I scold them rudely to chicken angel and I really feel like crying
I hate most people touch my bed
and now without my permission f*cking you went in my room
U put ur F*cking keys on my bed
and how I know did you place ur F*cking ass on my bed
what else u put on my bed while I am not around
and don't you got the common sense that those F*cking keys is how terrible F*cking dirty ?
I like F*cking mad at the moment
and once I went in G'dom
I pull those F*cking LOVELY bed sheet, pillow case, blanket and my jacket out from my bed
and I throw them on the floor
Like really F*cking angry and really F*cking want to chop those people into BILLION pieces

Really F*cking Hate them
and I totally SICK of them

Desaria Villa
I Hate You FOREVER !!

p/s I don't have new blanket to replace the F*cking dirty blanket I throw away from my bed

F*CK !


signing off,
Ms Goh