After so many days.

It has been ages since I last updated my blog. I have totally lost the passion to write. You see, when I read through the posts, I only see some crap with no soul. Then, I decided to read, instead of writing stuff that no one would interested to bother, not even myself.

However, as a contradictive person like me, I have decided to come back and crap a little once in awhile. Need some space to talk about myself where I don't see people losing attention on me, just because I can't see.

So, hello, I am officially graduated. Has been working in an advertising agency for 3 months as a contract designer. Quit after 3 months, because can't bear with the work, sleep, work and work daily routine, also, realized that I'm not really ready to grow in there. Timeline is too tight and I have no time to get inspired, and I see myself couldn't offer the client an up-level works. Back in student time, we have weeks or atleast a week to finish thing nicely, conceptually, but here, you have few briefs that you might need to finish in less than 24 hours, or worst. Everything is rushing. And you can still get new brief when the clock hits 11 at night. So I get stucked up, couldn't really think anymore after few weeks, stressed up because worry that might screw up other's job. So, I quit after the contract ends. Relief.

Now, after a month and 19 days of resting, I'm still resting. Gaining weight, but I don't mind, I'm so glad that I get to eat whenever I want to. Settling my time with some plan, freelance job, drawing. Can't say it's perfect, but I'm still figuring out what I want to do and who I want to be in future.

I'm planning something that would not caused me dying at 30 because of sickness. That's my little dream beyond everything.

I'm coming back again, in next month. To share some monthly updates. See you then!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

hello? I'm still reading ur blog! finally there's an update. <3
miss u and take care