First week back to LUCT ::

28022008 . Thursday . rain

The clock showed me now is 1740 p.m.
One more minute to turn it to be 5:41 p.m.
Well it is not important anymore
I always got chance to see it happens

The first week back to here is tortures me
I eat but not taste it
Lost the appetite while I'm in the campus
Wings Coffee brings me memories with Reen
and I can't feed myself the Wings Nasi Lemak without her
feeling bad and tears dropped
Now I realize I am more dependent than I thought
I can see Reen shadow everywhere in the room now
when I am watching movies and series with my pc
I thought Reen is beside me munching potato chips
The sour cream and onion flavor
our all time favorite -

But she is not around
she is far from here, doing her own stuff at Sunway
Besides, I also miss the time we were having class

I miss the time we had lecture in the class
I miss the time we rush for our final projects
I miss the time we argued for different opinion
I miss the time we laughed and cried
I miss the time we hanged out in the mall
I miss the time we walked far from butterfly park to KTM station
I miss the time we mopped our room for the only two times
I miss the time we bought foods and drinks, prepared to watch dramas
I miss the time we rush for our assignments, burning midnight oil
I miss the time we shopped in the Desaria shops, there are nothing good to shop but we just had fun
I miss the time we lost things and found, thanks God for the luck
I miss the time we went out with trains, suffered, tired, felt like vomit but still got each other
I miss the time we talked about Old time stories when we had nothing to do
I miss the time we complained the lecturers and waited all day time for them

there are too much to list out
I just can't manage to continue it because tears keep dropping now

1756 p.m.

1910 p.m.

Just finish my meal
I had curry chicken, veges and 3 nuggets for dinner
so full
Tues night I had Sambah Chicken as dinner
Thought about Reen
because she always order this last semester
she is enjoy eating spicy foods
me too

Well talk about the classes
I felt disappointed about the lecturers
they are not as good as I aspect
maybe because I put high hope on them
or because of I am taking the wrong course
Anyway, Grace not agree with me
she thinks that reason why I ll say so is because Reen moved to TOA
I can't say she is wrong
that's one of the reason I feel uncomfortable

I am really confused about the course
I am always more interested in graphic design stuff
but I hate printing as well
Well put this aside
I am not sure I like multimedia stuff or not
html made me sick and I'm not sure I ll like it in future
as what I heard
if I am taking multimedia design
all the way I have to stuck with the Html

I want to know everything about these courses
so that I can make a wise decision
besides that, money also another problem need to solve
*dead*

Next week I have things to do
Monday need to pass up the research
Tuesday need photos and have a quiz
Wednesday need to tell lecturer what is Typography
something like presentation
Thursday I have to bear with the what!? Lecturer
Friday is still a big question mark there

I can't say I relax with my course
but until now I am still watching series and movies everyday
From noon until night
Almost finish 30 episodes of Mulan that Sister's Oscar downloaded
and 4 movies done

Meals are not good
As what I said earlier
lost appetite when I am in the campus
when I go back to dorm
I took mee cup everyday as meal
maybe night ll go to the stall buy some foods
Last night I headed to Tesco with Quin and one of her house mate who named Xiao Lv
Went to Sushi King had dinner
thought about Reen again
she used to go with us
she ll always order golden ball
Udon is her favorite as well
she loves to drink the soup
I told Quin I miss Reen
but I know she can do nothing for me
I understand about nothing is can't live without anyone
I still alive you know
just pretty sad and feel uncomfortable all the time

Suddenly I think of what we said last time
We always praise our classmates for being so brave
We said we might die if come to uni alone
now it become real
and yeah
feeling is really bad
Things always change
I don't believe on things I belief anymore

Well I acc Quin to buy somethings for cook
she is now having toasted bread with sausages, eggs and cheese everyday ?
Not sure but might be
I think if Reen is still studying here she ll want to do the same thing
Too bad she won't have this chance here

Tmr I am going back to Kuantan with Reen
She is having term break next week
too bad I just go back for days
fri noon go back sun noon come back
Very rush I know but I am simply homesick

Today English class the lecturer asked us to write a paragraph for her
any topic we wish to write
I wrote about homesick
There is a sentence inside there
" Needs hugs from parents everyday to make me feel good "
U may say I am silly but I'm not

" I simply miss home sweet home, with my parents around "
This is the sentence to end the very short essay

Love,
Tze Yee -

Homesick

23022008 . Saturday . sun

2127 p.m.

Things are going crazy
Feel bad and sad
point is I am now at KL
tmr gonna back to dorm and start uni life without chicken angel
I am going to do things alone
Jia Ying is moving in
but I'm sure she can't acc me like chicken angel did
it is because of we are just taking different course
the time is not match

Never cry so badly for a period of time
Tears keep dropping and I can't speak a word
Hugging my parents and family make it worst
I am more into can't live without them
Four months holiday I didn't appreciate time with them
but now
I am begging for just one more day
Many things I want to share with them
Arguing is better than alone ain't ?

Now refuse to talk with my parents
because I know I ll cry
I'm just used to stay at home
at my hometown - Kuantan
The one I Love is all there
all there ..
Okay some are here
but we just can't stick together like we did at Kuantan

Wanted go back to Kuantan now
I actually understand life is like this
so I accept and go on
Well . you know, sometimes I just can't control my emotion
*Homesick*

Besides that, my mobile phone spoiled
so am now using my very old hand phone
Lost all the contact number
so please dun mind if I send u msg asking who are you
You won't aspect me to memorize every single contact number ain't ?
Thank You for being understanding =)

Not everyone around me is happy
some body just faced the bad things
wish whoever there all the best
Things ll be fine soon
I swear ..

and Happy Birthday to Enson
the only boy in Gang - Starz
our lovely zi mui
sorry for not celebrate with you
but I swear ur sweetest baby ker xin ll

ll not on the line for 3 or 4 days
not yet apply for an account at Desaria yet
so see u guys in 4 days time

Lots of Love,
Tze Yee

2147 p.m.

p/s No any delicious meals for me today . Perhaps tmr ?

Leave

21022008 . Thursday . Sun

1958p.m.

First of all
I would like to wish my eldest sister safe journey to Japan
hope everything is going to be fine
has a memorable and enjoyable trip there
Loves -

Okay back to the topic
Am going back to Cyberjaya this coming Saturday
Oh I really want to shout out loudly
I don wanna Leave !!
I miss everything at home
I miss every single soul I Love
just couldn't imagine days without them besides me
no one will take care of me
helping me do this and that
*Tears dropped*
I just don't want Leave
a big No no ..

Now pressing on my eldest sister's keyboard
feeling weird
and her pc is damn lag
lagging all the while I log in, typing etc
when it comes to load the page
the condition is even worst
Okay I think I miss my pc
and all the movies and series inside

Talk about the time table
I am screwed up with that
Let's share it

Monday 1-4pm Drawing
Tuesday Off
Wednesday 9-12pm Typography design 1-4pm Design studies
Thursday 10-12pm English 1
Friday 10-12pm History of Multimedia 2-5pm Digital Imaging

So that's means I can't stay at Kuantan longer than usual
just the same and it doesn't help
Feel sad =(

Mommy is busy helping me to pack things I want to bring back
Wanted tell her I want to stay but just can't
I swear Baby won't miss me
as she always stick with her another aunt and always fight with me
Uh huh ..
gonna miss her lots
dunno will cry out or not

Anyway
there is still some hope I am looking for
such like lunch at Bar B Q plaza on Sat ?

Sister
u know what to do rite ?
U just too love me ain't ?

Ha Ha

Love,
Tze Yee

Dream

17022oo8 . Sunday . sunny day

1544 p.m.

Am now watching Taiwan series "Mulan"
watched that years ago
very nice and interesting story line
content is good good

Today actually plan to go back Kuantan
but things end up we are going back on Monday
poor me still can't go LUCT to register myself tomorrow
sister is rushing to Bentong
have some sort of appointment with doctors
sister's Oscar is very happy I think
i can read them from his face expression
Ha Ha ..

So we came back to Oscar's home after lunch
I had fried spaghetti and honey cincau as lunch
taste so so - the food
quite refreshing - the drink

Think that there are no any perfect relationship in this world
The couples around me never stop themselves from arguing
but very soon later
They are the sweetest couple ever
very confusing
single is always better - For me lar ..

Talk about something weird
I had a very weird dream yesterday night
still can remember part of that
am wondering ll it happens or happened ?
but it strongly prove something to myself
and Yeah I am not going to write down here

I think I am going to out of word now
so ..

Good bye then

signing off,
Tze Yee

Day back to the busy city

16022008 . Saturday . unknown weather

2257p.m.

Today is the second day I at KL
as what I planned
we woke up at early morning 8 something
rushing rushing
go back to uni pay the fees and settle the PTPTN thing
well can't manage to register myself and can't get the filled in CAF form
so don't care about that first
and sister's Oscar hungry

so We leave the uni and head to the dorm
it is Oh so dirty, my room
and what's freak me out is the drainage cover in the bathroom is Broken *rolled eyes*
I dunno who did that and no idea how to break it as well
and everything is like spoiled and dirty
things messed up
I dunno what had happen there before
just hope it is no more next time happens this kind of thing
so I force to go down to the management there
fill in the maintenance form so that someone will change the drainage cover
if it is charged me any amount of money
I will kill somebody which I dunno who is the somebody
*smack smack*

So after all the complicated stuff to done
we moved to Puchong and had Bak kuk teh as lunch
the atmosphere is not so good
influence my appetite really
I can't even finish my rice
and leave sister's Oscar to finish the leftovers
*grins*
and then we go to One Utama
sister wanted to buy the winter clothes for herself go to Japan
and when we are both sit on the chair in front ELLE
I saw Myolie Wu just pass by in front of me
I was stunned and seconds later I wonder who is the man beside her
and I swear if the man is Raymond Lum
I shall slap myself hard !
Oh god ..

Well there is something really happy things happened
when my sis bought me 5 books
I Love them
credits to sister, Jamie

Okay
day end with waffles and Ramley burger
got to go mortals
watching movie in the house

cheerio !

Love,
Tze Yee

235Op.m.

Whatever Valentine day

14022008 . thursday . sunny day

1647 p.m.

Today is Valentine day
for those who are having a very sweet relationship
it is Happy Valentine day
for those who are having a worst relationship or just break up or whatsover
it is Sad Valentine day
for those who like me is single and available
it is Whatever Valentine day

Yeah ..
Valentine day never mean anything to me
things usually wont be any special during Valentine day
never need to worry what to give as Valentine present
this year is never excluded
I am still having Whatever Valentine day

Well today actually plan to watch a movie with my beloved cheng wen xing
things never go perfect
the date is cancel
because she have to go KL tonight
so everything just spoiled
the only lucky thing is at least we had tea last night
and we took picture together

nothing to regret now
hope that buddies at kl can meet up with her before she take flight to Aus
all the best zhung wan
I Love u all the time

these two days I overnight at my eldest sister's place
am freezing cold sleeping under the strong wind fan
with the very thick blanket
I get flu and feel sick now
headache and feel like vomit all the time
an advice to brother in law
not to switch on the fan until so high speed next time
dangerous really

Enjoyed the time stay at my sister's house
everything is new and clean
and the living room is Oh so Cold
feel like sleeping on the Sofa with the Tv on -
having good sleep and sweet dream

Time actually fly
week later I have to go back for school
the very first time without chicken angel besides me
time to learn be independent
Oh my God
I just so not sure I can handle it well or not
may the God bless me always

so it means more often I ll go back to Kuantan
and that's more often I ll eat less
hate to have meal alone at outside
feel stupid every time I do so

Here I wish everyone is happily going back to college
and here I wish the new classes are not so hard for me to learn

God bless all of us

Lots of Love,
Tze Yee -

1713p.m.

Back to Normal

12o22oo8 . Tuesday . sunny day

1900 p.m.

Hour later I will sit in the cinema and watch "Kungfu Dunk"
Didn't aspect too much because I simply love "CJ7"
Never mean that Jay Chow not good but Steven Chow impress me too much

There are 5 days I spent with darlings
Am very appreciate the every single second with them
it seems like low percentage all of us can gather together
Everyone got their own business to take care of
separate to everywhere
so Chinese New Year is the best time to gather together

These 5 days are the happiest moment in this year
I met many people that I hardly see last year
Can't wait until next Chinese New Year
* Tears dropped*

Now everyone is going back to school or whatsover
chicken angel . muneeee . belinda . shen yee . mi xiao are all go back to college
and who are stay at Kuantan have to go back to school
Exam coming soon anyway
poor them
I feel like so empty in myself
lusting for another gathering

To all my darlings
I will go back to college soon as well
miss every single one of you
Love every single soul I Love

*crying like waterfall*

Everything back to normal
but I just wish to be abnormal

Lots of Love,
Tze Yee -

Hoooray for the Chinese New Year

O7o2O8 . Thursday . unknown weather but think should be good =)

First of all
I would like to say
"Happieeee Chinese New Year to all my loves one"
Wish that every single soul I Love is healthy and happy

Now is O438a.m.
Can't imagine my eyes are still wide open
since I am slept for not more than 6 hours Yesterday
and done all the tiring works for whole day
washing cleaning washing cleaning
ended up my hands are both hurts
hate this happened =(

Anyway
was still cleaning crazily when the clock turned to 11.56p.m.
Dear mum say have to get the first drop of water and drink that
however
the water is not enough for all of us
so clever me mixed that with the whole bottle of water
everyone can drink now
Ha Ha

Had a very relaxing bath hours ago
still feel good now
later have to wake up very early help mum to do something else
Oh my ..
No rest for me yet ?
Can't believe on this
*nagging*

Well Well Well
can't wait until afternoon
friends coming and we may start our fun time
Ha Ha
miss every of them
not only gang - sTarZ but other bestiee as well
we shall gather at my place first
then move on our journey !
*journey?*

Shirlene asked me to go her house tmr because she ll have open house
no no no
I don't care
she must come to my place first only we go her house
it's like rules to come my house first
let's keep it on okay
don't break it =)

Didn't buy much clothes so not so exciting about wearing the new outfits
but I am very in love with my new shoes
pair of limited edition of Nike
with the theme of Gaming Queen
Well
since we talked about this
Chinese New Year is a very good chance for me to gamble
Ha Ha
Gaming Queen is some sort of my aim
simply like to gamble lar
have to blame this on my dad
he taught me since I am so small
my uncle as well
the one who taught me to play different kind of poker game
huh huh ..
blame them !

Will post pictures on next post
my elder sister is calling me now
want to go watch TV with her
since we both not think to sleep yet
see u guys later okay
Very soon !!

Once again,
Happpieeeeeee Chinese New Year babes

Lots of Love,
Tze Yee -

p/s please kindly give some comment on my friend's icon design . she is doing some sort of user test ? Whatever it is, please visit http://www.xanga.com/belissacsl .

Horror

midnight ..
Very bad in mood
everyone is sleeping
and I still got billion ton of works to finish up
feel like want to throw the wet napkin onto the chairs HARDLY !!
Y so dusty ?
I wonder

Just now I think I am hurting other's feeling
feel sorry but I think I can't do anything
sorry won't cure ain't ?
I might beware of my words next time
Yeah Yeah
sorry again
*rolled eyes*

Well well well
have to leave fers
just come and cracks out my bad feeling
in case I screwed out all the things
or simply scold anyone
might not able to control myself very soon
again ..

So
bye mortals

signing off,
Tze Yee -