It has been ages since I last updated my blog. I have totally lost the passion to write. You see, when I read through the posts, I only see some crap with no soul. Then, I decided to read, instead of writing stuff that no one would interested to bother, not even myself.
However, as a contradictive person like me, I have decided to come back and crap a little once in awhile. Need some space to talk about myself where I don't see people losing attention on me, just because I can't see.
So, hello, I am officially graduated. Has been working in an advertising agency for 3 months as a contract designer. Quit after 3 months, because can't bear with the work, sleep, work and work daily routine, also, realized that I'm not really ready to grow in there. Timeline is too tight and I have no time to get inspired, and I see myself couldn't offer the client an up-level works. Back in student time, we have weeks or atleast a week to finish thing nicely, conceptually, but here, you have few briefs that you might need to finish in less than 24 hours, or worst. Everything is rushing. And you can still get new brief when the clock hits 11 at night. So I get stucked up, couldn't really think anymore after few weeks, stressed up because worry that might screw up other's job. So, I quit after the contract ends. Relief.
Now, after a month and 19 days of resting, I'm still resting. Gaining weight, but I don't mind, I'm so glad that I get to eat whenever I want to. Settling my time with some plan, freelance job, drawing. Can't say it's perfect, but I'm still figuring out what I want to do and who I want to be in future.
I'm planning something that would not caused me dying at 30 because of sickness. That's my little dream beyond everything.
I'm coming back again, in next month. To share some monthly updates. See you then!
Spend some time on this.
Would really like to share you this article. So true.
高中：
我：妈，没钱了，打点钱吧。妈：多少？我：200爸：给300吧，钱多放点，当心身体。我：那我上课了，早点给我打钱。第二天，账上多了500快。
大一：
我：妈，我想家了。妈：啥时候回来？爸：缺钱了吧，爸给你打。我：没，不习惯，就是想家了。爸妈：恩，放假早点回来，早点买票，当心身体。爸后来告诉我，打完电话，妈哭了，非怪我爸，当年任由我自己选了这个不熟悉的城市。
大二 大三:
妈：你很久没打电话了，忙什么呢？我：事情多啊，没时间哎。
爸：妈想你了，她一个人在家，没事多打打电话。我：知道了，最近忙呢，有时间再打。爸：什么时候的车，回头来接你。我：不用了，今天留在县城了，再同学家吃饭。 妈：我做了一桌子的菜呢，咋又不回来了。我：难得回家和同学聚聚嘛。妈：你也难得回家，我们半年才看到你一次啊。终于到家了，吃饭时间已经过了，饿得很， 冰箱里满满的菜，几乎都没动过，老妈说，你不在，你爸喝酒都没有心思。
实习：
我：妈，实习太苦了，我要回家。妈：回家，歇着，养得起。爸：回家，你爸还能干活呢，连你都养不起，我白混了。他们的话，让我很没志气的跑回家躲了很多天。
实习到东北：
妈： 最近还忙啊，吃饭了没有啊。我：很忙呢，随便吃了点面。妈：不能光吃面，要有营养的，哪怕到外面点个菜吃。我：恩，知道了。过年回家，院子里晒了N多干 货，香肠，家里N多腌制的鱼肉。老妈说，这些不烦神，直接就可以烧了吃了，比吃面条好多了。她冬天手都是开裂的，那些腌肉，都是用盐细细码好的。
现在：
我：妈，等我稳定了你出来玩吧，我现在有钱了。妈：你能有几个钱，外面花费那么贵，省着点。我：我真有钱了，你来也有地方住。妈：我还得照顾你爸呢。老爸是离不开老妈的，我知道，老妈永远是个操劳的命。
每天一个电话，就那么几句话，以至于我觉得老妈都烦了。前天太忙几天没给家里电话，昨天打回去，刚响，老妈就接了，问冻着没，问吃饱没，问累着没？我以为每天都有电话，没有那么多话说的，其实她一直在等我的电话。
每 次回家，桌上总有那么些个你喜欢的菜。每次聊天，他们总是会问问，吃饱没，穿暖没，累着没，而我们很少或者根本没有问过。他们曾今是天，说一不二，你从不 能违抗。可是现在，他们都听你的了，你说什么都是对的了。因为他们老了，他们开始寻求依靠了，而他们这辈子，拥有的只有我们。多打打电话吧，三分钟的时间 真的没有那么难挤出来。可以和爱人一天一个小时，也请给他们三分钟的时间吧。问问今天忙些啥，问问今天吃写啥，就像当年他们问我们的一样，他们不会像我们 那样，觉得烦了。
记得有一次跟朋友聊天，朋友说："就按我一年回家5次算，保佑咱爸妈能活到100岁也就还能见他们200多次，真少！"
So,
call back home and show some love already?
高中：
我：妈，没钱了，打点钱吧。妈：多少？我：200爸：给300吧，钱多放点，当心身体。我：那我上课了，早点给我打钱。第二天，账上多了500快。
大一：
我：妈，我想家了。妈：啥时候回来？爸：缺钱了吧，爸给你打。我：没，不习惯，就是想家了。爸妈：恩，放假早点回来，早点买票，当心身体。爸后来告诉我，打完电话，妈哭了，非怪我爸，当年任由我自己选了这个不熟悉的城市。
大二 大三:
妈：你很久没打电话了，忙什么呢？我：事情多啊，没时间哎。
爸：妈想你了，她一个人在家，没事多打打电话。我：知道了，最近忙呢，有时间再打。爸：什么时候的车，回头来接你。我：不用了，今天留在县城了，再同学家吃饭。 妈：我做了一桌子的菜呢，咋又不回来了。我：难得回家和同学聚聚嘛。妈：你也难得回家，我们半年才看到你一次啊。终于到家了，吃饭时间已经过了，饿得很， 冰箱里满满的菜，几乎都没动过，老妈说，你不在，你爸喝酒都没有心思。
实习：
我：妈，实习太苦了，我要回家。妈：回家，歇着，养得起。爸：回家，你爸还能干活呢，连你都养不起，我白混了。他们的话，让我很没志气的跑回家躲了很多天。
实习到东北：
妈： 最近还忙啊，吃饭了没有啊。我：很忙呢，随便吃了点面。妈：不能光吃面，要有营养的，哪怕到外面点个菜吃。我：恩，知道了。过年回家，院子里晒了N多干 货，香肠，家里N多腌制的鱼肉。老妈说，这些不烦神，直接就可以烧了吃了，比吃面条好多了。她冬天手都是开裂的，那些腌肉，都是用盐细细码好的。
现在：
我：妈，等我稳定了你出来玩吧，我现在有钱了。妈：你能有几个钱，外面花费那么贵，省着点。我：我真有钱了，你来也有地方住。妈：我还得照顾你爸呢。老爸是离不开老妈的，我知道，老妈永远是个操劳的命。
每天一个电话，就那么几句话，以至于我觉得老妈都烦了。前天太忙几天没给家里电话，昨天打回去，刚响，老妈就接了，问冻着没，问吃饱没，问累着没？我以为每天都有电话，没有那么多话说的，其实她一直在等我的电话。
每 次回家，桌上总有那么些个你喜欢的菜。每次聊天，他们总是会问问，吃饱没，穿暖没，累着没，而我们很少或者根本没有问过。他们曾今是天，说一不二，你从不 能违抗。可是现在，他们都听你的了，你说什么都是对的了。因为他们老了，他们开始寻求依靠了，而他们这辈子，拥有的只有我们。多打打电话吧，三分钟的时间 真的没有那么难挤出来。可以和爱人一天一个小时，也请给他们三分钟的时间吧。问问今天忙些啥，问问今天吃写啥，就像当年他们问我们的一样，他们不会像我们 那样，觉得烦了。
记得有一次跟朋友聊天，朋友说："就按我一年回家5次算，保佑咱爸妈能活到100岁也就还能见他们200多次，真少！"
So,
call back home and show some love already?
一輩子的承諾
Doing nothing at sk no.16 so I was browsing through the facebook homepage
and saw this article,
found it very meaningful so I thought of sharing this:
so touching right?
and saw this article,
found it very meaningful so I thought of sharing this:
老婆婆和老公公的年紀老邁,老公公的身子一直很差,而老婆婆的身子卻尚算壯健.
因老公公身子問題,他倆並沒子嗣,老婆婆卻很害怕孤單,常常擔憂老公公死後要獨自面生活。老公公常捉弄老婆婆,叫老婆婆在他死後再尋找伴侶,這個玩笑,總令老婆婆感到心酸。
後來,他倆在一次行山時,老公公跌倒了,以後也不能步行,需要坐輪椅,手也不能再動了,所以連吃飯也要有人在旁餵吃。原本已受百種病魔節磨的老公公一下子情況就變得更糟糕,他每天都需要老婆婆餵他吃飯,什至連大小二便也要老婆婆照顧。
又沒有什麼親人在身邊,日子雖然難熬,可是他倆好像比以前更甜蜜。
直到有一天,老公公被証實患上癌症,現在,他除要克服生活的不便外,還要接受物理治療和疾病帶來的痛楚。
醫生慎重地問老公公:「你要選擇安樂死嗎?」老公公笑了笑回答:「不!我相信我能活下來的。」
可能疾病初期帶來的痛楚不大,但到後期,一個體弱的老人家還熬得下去嗎?醫生不禁憂心起來。
老婆婆雖然大受打擊,可是仍很樂意照顧老公公。但看著老公公的臉色一天比一天憔悴,蒼白,老婆婆的心很酸很酸。
有一次,老婆婆認真地問老公公為什麼不接受醫生的建議,老公公回答:「因為我是男人嗎,那可以選擇像自殺似的安樂死?
老婆婆微笑回答,一個大男人,要妻子每天清理大小二便的,還在逞強呢!其實老婆婆是十分高興老公公沒有選擇離她而去。
又過了若干日子,老公公的情況已變得很壞很壞,老婆婆每天看見在床上抽搐的老公公比死更難受,便嗚咽哭了起來,她竟親口求老公公選擇安樂死。老公公並沒有回答,只是緊緊捉著老婆婆的手。
醫生護士都很驚訝,這老人家的跟病魔對抗意志真的很頑強。大約他承受了很多吧!大家都不禁地想,到底什麼使這個老人家那麼堅持活下去呢?
大約在一個明媚的上午,老婆婆睡著了,再也喚不起來了。
葬禮上,老公公沒有哭,護士把老公公推到老婆婆的面前,老婆婆靜靜地睡著了,老公公突然微笑了一下。護士很詫異,她衝口而出地對老公公說:「我們都以為你是因為不捨得老婆婆才那麼堅強地活下去呢!」老公公又笑了一下回答:「你說得對呀,就是因為對她的不捨,才堅持活了下來,因為害怕看見她哭泣,因為害怕她因失去我而感到孤單...」
老公公又接著說:「這妮子呀,我從和她結婚那天起便對自己許諾,一輩子都不讓她哭泣的,大約她不知道吧,那次她看見我在床上捲曲,哭了起來,那時我的痛苦,比病魔對我的節磨還要難受…白頭到老嘛,我們做到了,遺憾的是,我始終令她為我哭過一次…」
護士在老公公的身後,扶著老公公的輪椅,眼淚不禁無聲無色地掉下。
又過了一兩天,老公公也睡著了,帶著因受病魔節磨而變得蒼白的臉,竟帶著一絲慈祥的微笑…
老公公沒有對老婆婆用言語許諾,
但他用的,卻是一輩子的時間去證明,
口口聲聲說愛說喜歡,事實上,你到底灌注了多少愛?
口口聲聲說要永永遠遠愛著一個人的,你們有幾次真的堅持到底呢?
so touching right?
Homesick already
No, I haven't leave home yet but
when it's time to pack my stuff,
and mom finally spend some time to have dinner with me (she usually rushes her meals because she needs to look after the babies),
I know it's time to leave.
I feel like crying and
I wish to spend more time with mom,
it's never enough for me.
I miss my mom already,
I know this is a little bit unfair to my dad but,
I miss my mom ):
Another few scary, tiring months until graduate,
following by endless working days I guess.
I curse.
when it's time to pack my stuff,
and mom finally spend some time to have dinner with me (she usually rushes her meals because she needs to look after the babies),
I know it's time to leave.
I feel like crying and
I wish to spend more time with mom,
it's never enough for me.
I miss my mom already,
I know this is a little bit unfair to my dad but,
I miss my mom ):
Another few scary, tiring months until graduate,
following by endless working days I guess.
I curse.
Too soon
Leaving home on Friday
gonna miss mom a lot ):
Time flies and seriously did nothing during the break,
feel super sien,
don't show me that kind of face,
IRKSOME !
tsk
go away !
gonna miss mom a lot ):
Time flies and seriously did nothing during the break,
feel super sien,
don't show me that kind of face,
IRKSOME !
tsk
go away !
Lead me to sumwhere better
Lotsa things to think about before graduate,
life is scaring,
sista sent me the article about the predictions of 2012 thingy,
like seriously what is the fucking point of reading that?
It's not like I can do anything to change it, so screw it I don't want to know when I might die tsk
Need some guides to live a better life, I want to be happy but how to?
I really thought you can convince me, but nahh,
not yet.
I want to eat something now.
life is scaring,
sista sent me the article about the predictions of 2012 thingy,
like seriously what is the fucking point of reading that?
It's not like I can do anything to change it, so screw it I don't want to know when I might die tsk
Need some guides to live a better life, I want to be happy but how to?
I really thought you can convince me, but nahh,
not yet.
I want to eat something now.
The rice is uncooked
Had lunch but still,
now crave for some cheese tart, mango sticky rice, pandan chicken, green curry, pepper lunch, chicken wings, pan mee and meatball.
Like to spend a whole day time in Starbucks to do some drawings, I want to try the hot green tea latte.
So lifeless, I hope I didn't miss any gathering but in fact I missed a lot of them.
I don't like this, I miss they guys much.
This is super random and meaningless, bye.
now crave for some cheese tart, mango sticky rice, pandan chicken, green curry, pepper lunch, chicken wings, pan mee and meatball.
Like to spend a whole day time in Starbucks to do some drawings, I want to try the hot green tea latte.
So lifeless, I hope I didn't miss any gathering but in fact I missed a lot of them.
I don't like this, I miss they guys much.
This is super random and meaningless, bye.
Give me a movie break
I want to watch these:
/// Toy Story 3
// The Twilight Saga: Eclipse
// Sex and The City 2
// Despicable Me
// the Karate Kid
// Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang
/ Flirting Scholar 2
/ Love in a Puff
/ She's out of my League
/ The Legend is Born: IP Man
/ The A-Team
/ The Fantastic Water Babes
/ Inception
/ Knight and Day
/ Frozen (please do not waste money to watch this)
/ Triple Tap
who's on?
// Sex and The City 2
// Despicable Me
// Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang
/ Flirting Scholar 2
/ Love in a Puff
/ She's out of my League
/ The Legend is Born: IP Man
/ The A-Team
/ The Fantastic Water Babes
/ Inception
who's on?
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