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After so many days.

2011-05-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

It has been ages since I last updated my blog. I have totally lost the passion to write. You see, when I read through the posts, I only see some crap with no soul. Then, I decided to read, instead of writing stuff that no one would interested to bother, not even myself.

However, as a contradictive person like me, I have decided to come back and crap a little once in awhile. Need some space to talk about myself where I don't see people losing attention on me, just because I can't see.

So, hello, I am officially graduated. Has been working in an advertising agency for 3 months as a contract designer. Quit after 3 months, because can't bear with the work, sleep, work and work daily routine, also, realized that I'm not really ready to grow in there. Timeline is too tight and I have no time to get inspired, and I see myself couldn't offer the client an up-level works. Back in student time, we have weeks or atleast a week to finish thing nicely, conceptually, but here, you have few briefs that you might need to finish in less than 24 hours, or worst. Everything is rushing. And you can still get new brief when the clock hits 11 at night. So I get stucked up, couldn't really think anymore after few weeks, stressed up because worry that might screw up other's job. So, I quit after the contract ends. Relief.

Now, after a month and 19 days of resting, I'm still resting. Gaining weight, but I don't mind, I'm so glad that I get to eat whenever I want to. Settling my time with some plan, freelance job, drawing. Can't say it's perfect, but I'm still figuring out what I want to do and who I want to be in future.

I'm planning something that would not caused me dying at 30 because of sickness. That's my little dream beyond everything.

I'm coming back again, in next month. To share some monthly updates. See you then!

To Anyone from 2NE1

2010-09-07T13:32:00.010+08:00

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Pretty cool ya ?
can't wait until 09092010 !

Spend some time on this.

2010-08-30T12:40:00.002+08:00

Would really like to share you this article. So true.

高中：
我：妈，没钱了，打点钱吧。妈：多少？我：200爸：给300吧，钱多放点，当心身体。我：那我上课了，早点给我打钱。第二天，账上多了500快。

大一：
我：妈，我想家了。妈：啥时候回来？爸：缺钱了吧，爸给你打。我：没，不习惯，就是想家了。爸妈：恩，放假早点回来，早点买票，当心身体。爸后来告诉我，打完电话，妈哭了，非怪我爸，当年任由我自己选了这个不熟悉的城市。

大二大三:
妈：你很久没打电话了，忙什么呢？我：事情多啊，没时间哎。
爸：妈想你了，她一个人在家，没事多打打电话。我：知道了，最近忙呢，有时间再打。爸：什么时候的车，回头来接你。我：不用了，今天留在县城了，再同学家吃饭。妈：我做了一桌子的菜呢，咋又不回来了。我：难得回家和同学聚聚嘛。妈：你也难得回家，我们半年才看到你一次啊。终于到家了，吃饭时间已经过了，饿得很，冰箱里满满的菜，几乎都没动过，老妈说，你不在，你爸喝酒都没有心思。

实习：
我：妈，实习太苦了，我要回家。妈：回家，歇着，养得起。爸：回家，你爸还能干活呢，连你都养不起，我白混了。他们的话，让我很没志气的跑回家躲了很多天。

实习到东北：
妈：最近还忙啊，吃饭了没有啊。我：很忙呢，随便吃了点面。妈：不能光吃面，要有营养的，哪怕到外面点个菜吃。我：恩，知道了。过年回家，院子里晒了N多干货，香肠，家里N多腌制的鱼肉。老妈说，这些不烦神，直接就可以烧了吃了，比吃面条好多了。她冬天手都是开裂的，那些腌肉，都是用盐细细码好的。

现在：
我：妈，等我稳定了你出来玩吧，我现在有钱了。妈：你能有几个钱，外面花费那么贵，省着点。我：我真有钱了，你来也有地方住。妈：我还得照顾你爸呢。老爸是离不开老妈的，我知道，老妈永远是个操劳的命。
每天一个电话，就那么几句话，以至于我觉得老妈都烦了。前天太忙几天没给家里电话，昨天打回去，刚响，老妈就接了，问冻着没，问吃饱没，问累着没？我以为每天都有电话，没有那么多话说的，其实她一直在等我的电话。

每次回家，桌上总有那么些个你喜欢的菜。每次聊天，他们总是会问问，吃饱没，穿暖没，累着没，而我们很少或者根本没有问过。他们曾今是天，说一不二，你从不能违抗。可是现在，他们都听你的了，你说什么都是对的了。因为他们老了，他们开始寻求依靠了，而他们这辈子，拥有的只有我们。多打打电话吧，三分钟的时间真的没有那么难挤出来。可以和爱人一天一个小时，也请给他们三分钟的时间吧。问问今天忙些啥，问问今天吃写啥，就像当年他们问我们的一样，他们不会像我们那样，觉得烦了。

记得有一次跟朋友聊天，朋友说："就按我一年回家5次算，保佑咱爸妈能活到100岁也就还能见他们200多次，真少！"

So,
call back home and show some love already?

一輩子的承諾

2010-08-05T18:34:00.002+08:00

Doing nothing at sk no.16 so I was browsing through the facebook homepage
and saw this article,
found it very meaningful so I thought of sharing this:

老婆婆和老公公的年紀老邁,老公公的身子一直很差,而老婆婆的身子卻尚算壯健.

因老公公身子問題,他倆並沒子嗣,老婆婆卻很害怕孤單,常常擔憂老公公死後要獨自面生活。老公公常捉弄老婆婆,叫老婆婆在他死後再尋找伴侶,這個玩笑,總令老婆婆感到心酸。

後來,他倆在一次行山時,老公公跌倒了,以後也不能步行,需要坐輪椅,手也不能再動了,所以連吃飯也要有人在旁餵吃。原本已受百種病魔節磨的老公公一下子情況就變得更糟糕,他每天都需要老婆婆餵他吃飯,什至連大小二便也要老婆婆照顧。

又沒有什麼親人在身邊,日子雖然難熬,可是他倆好像比以前更甜蜜。

直到有一天,老公公被証實患上癌症,現在,他除要克服生活的不便外,還要接受物理治療和疾病帶來的痛楚。

醫生慎重地問老公公:「你要選擇安樂死嗎?」老公公笑了笑回答:「不!我相信我能活下來的。」

可能疾病初期帶來的痛楚不大,但到後期,一個體弱的老人家還熬得下去嗎?醫生不禁憂心起來。

老婆婆雖然大受打擊,可是仍很樂意照顧老公公。但看著老公公的臉色一天比一天憔悴,蒼白,老婆婆的心很酸很酸。

有一次,老婆婆認真地問老公公為什麼不接受醫生的建議,老公公回答:「因為我是男人嗎,那可以選擇像自殺似的安樂死?

老婆婆微笑回答,一個大男人,要妻子每天清理大小二便的,還在逞強呢!其實老婆婆是十分高興老公公沒有選擇離她而去。

又過了若干日子,老公公的情況已變得很壞很壞,老婆婆每天看見在床上抽搐的老公公比死更難受,便嗚咽哭了起來,她竟親口求老公公選擇安樂死。老公公並沒有回答,只是緊緊捉著老婆婆的手。

醫生護士都很驚訝,這老人家的跟病魔對抗意志真的很頑強。大約他承受了很多吧!大家都不禁地想,到底什麼使這個老人家那麼堅持活下去呢?

大約在一個明媚的上午,老婆婆睡著了,再也喚不起來了。

葬禮上,老公公沒有哭,護士把老公公推到老婆婆的面前,老婆婆靜靜地睡著了,老公公突然微笑了一下。護士很詫異,她衝口而出地對老公公說:「我們都以為你是因為不捨得老婆婆才那麼堅強地活下去呢!」老公公又笑了一下回答:「你說得對呀,就是因為對她的不捨,才堅持活了下來,因為害怕看見她哭泣,因為害怕她因失去我而感到孤單...」

老公公又接著說:「這妮子呀,我從和她結婚那天起便對自己許諾,一輩子都不讓她哭泣的,大約她不知道吧,那次她看見我在床上捲曲,哭了起來,那時我的痛苦,比病魔對我的節磨還要難受…白頭到老嘛,我們做到了,遺憾的是,我始終令她為我哭過一次…」

護士在老公公的身後,扶著老公公的輪椅,眼淚不禁無聲無色地掉下。

又過了一兩天,老公公也睡著了,帶著因受病魔節磨而變得蒼白的臉,竟帶著一絲慈祥的微笑…

老公公沒有對老婆婆用言語許諾,

但他用的,卻是一輩子的時間去證明,

口口聲聲說愛說喜歡,事實上,你到底灌注了多少愛?

口口聲聲說要永永遠遠愛著一個人的,你們有幾次真的堅持到底呢?

so touching right?

Homesick already

2010-07-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

No, I haven't leave home yet but
when it's time to pack my stuff,
and mom finally spend some time to have dinner with me (she usually rushes her meals because she needs to look after the babies),
I know it's time to leave.

I feel like crying and
I wish to spend more time with mom,
it's never enough for me.

I miss my mom already,
I know this is a little bit unfair to my dad but,
I miss my mom ):

Another few scary, tiring months until graduate,
following by endless working days I guess.

I curse.

Too soon

2010-07-20T20:59:00.001+08:00

Leaving home on Friday
gonna miss mom a lot ):

Time flies and seriously did nothing during the break,
feel super sien,
don't show me that kind of face,
IRKSOME !

tsk

go away !

Lead me to sumwhere better

2010-07-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

Lotsa things to think about before graduate,
life is scaring,
sista sent me the article about the predictions of 2012 thingy,
like seriously what is the fucking point of reading that?
It's not like I can do anything to change it, so screw it I don't want to know when I might die tsk

Need some guides to live a better life, I want to be happy but how to?
I really thought you can convince me, but nahh,
not yet.

I want to eat something now.

The rice is uncooked

2010-07-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

Had lunch but still,
now crave for some cheese tart, mango sticky rice, pandan chicken, green curry, pepper lunch, chicken wings, pan mee and meatball.

Like to spend a whole day time in Starbucks to do some drawings, I want to try the hot green tea latte.

So lifeless, I hope I didn't miss any gathering but in fact I missed a lot of them.
I don't like this, I miss they guys much.

This is super random and meaningless, bye.

Give me a movie break

2010-06-26T17:31:00.005+08:00

I want to watch these:

~~/// Toy Story 3~~
~~// The Twilight Saga: Eclipse~~
// Sex and The City 2
// Despicable Me
~~// the Karate Kid~~
// Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang
/ Flirting Scholar 2
/ Love in a Puff
/ She's out of my League
/ The Legend is Born: IP Man
/ The A-Team
/ The Fantastic Water Babes
/ Inception
~~/ Knight and Day~~
~~/ Frozen~~ (please do not waste money to watch this)
~~/ Triple Tap~~

who's on?

2005 and Eason Chan

2010-06-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

These are my favorite songs from Eason Chan:

1.当这地球没有花 2.黑夜不再来 3.给爱丽斯 4.伤信 5.与我常在 6.打回原形 7.绵绵 8.K歌之王 9.人来人往 10.Shall We Talk 11.防不胜防 12.沙龙 13.阿士匹灵 14.低等动物 15.单车 16.浮夸 17.孤独探戈 18.夕阳无限好 19.最佳损友 20.一丝不挂 21.陀飞轮 22.低调 23.明年今日 24.你的背包 25.Last Order 26.黄金时代 27.对不起谢谢 28.冤气 29.Shall We Dance 30.天下无双

31.幸福摩天轮 32.阿牛 33.葡萄成熟时 34.无人之境 35.于心有愧 36.不如不见 37.信心花舍 38.十面埋伏 39.时光倒流20年 40.猜情寻 41.时代巨轮 42.三个人的探戈 43.爱是怀疑 44.怕死 45.富士山下 46.岁月如歌 47.裙下之臣 48.天下太平 49.今日 50.忘记歌词

51.一切还好 52.时代曲 53.活着多好 54.贝多芬与我 55.黑择明 56.还有什么可以送给你 57.粵語殘片 58.深心伤透 59.King Kong 60.八里公路 61.随意门 62.打得火热 63.兴灾乐祸 64.冲口而出 65.落花流水 66.1874 67.不然你要我怎么样 68.热岛小夜曲 69.谢谢侬 70.心的距离

* The 2005's

Click in !

2010-06-01T20:55:00.001+08:00

Dears and strangers, (and the hi-bye friends)
please help me to fill in the following questionnaire and million thanks for your kindness. Appreciate it muchhhhhh (:

come come, click on it
Questionnaire!

~~so, please help, must help and do it NOW!~~

Million thanks to those who helped and always ready to help,
I got good responses and appreciate it much!
thank kiewww ((:

It's time to work already !

2010-05-13T15:01:00.004+08:00

~~/ Exhibition CIS set~~
~~/ Exhibition artworks research~~
~~/ Public Awareness Campaign~~
~~/ Design Analysis Proposal~~
~~/ Design Analysis Journal~~
~~/ Marketing Creative Brief & Print Adv~~
~~/ Self-Promo Video~~
~~/ Graphic Design E-journal~~

Long list and I barely touch any of them,
scary shit !

Finally semester ends and I have one month time to rest, tooooo short!

Slowly can?

2010-04-20T21:08:00.001+08:00

Earthquake hits Australia?!
It's creepy enough for me, so unusual
if it really comes to the end, soon or sooner
can slow down a bit ah?
maybe 100 years later please.
so many things I haven't do yet, tsk!

0151

2010-04-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

When you think that your life is sucks,
read the newspaper,
be thankful that you are still breathing.

Peace.

07042010

2010-04-07T14:15:00.002+08:00

Today, I'm back.

For my dear Liom Chu En, a best friend that I knew for more than 10 years.

10 years, I have no idea how much we gone through together. We shared tears of joy and sadness, we have each other shoulder to cry on. Today we don't do it that much anymore, probably because of we have other things to busy with. But I still love her a lot, I am always ready to share my things with her.

She is a very sweet, kind and sentimental girl. I always like her as a friend, she has her own thinking about what she should and shouldn't do. I love her for being herself, a best friend that I wouldn't want to miss. She is that kind of friend that you will always comfortable with her around no matter what happened. You can anytime share your things with her and she will pay fully attention on that. She is very trustworthy. I think, if I killed someone, I will tell her.

Yes, I trust her that much.

And now, ennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Happy 21st!

XOXO,
41

TSK

2010-02-26T01:40:00.001+08:00

I am going back to Seri Kembangan tmr, and now I'm feeling damn sad. Seriously homesick even though I still haven't leave home. Am now packing things with my mom, I feel like I'm moving house (in fact, I am moving to a new place). There are so many stuff to bring over, every detail shall not be forgotten. There are so many things to check, but I don't feel like doing it, it makes me feel like I really am leaving home soon (in fact, I am)

I'm feeling damn sick now, I don't wanna leave (see I keep repeating the same few lines) Can I stay home with my mom forever?

But I am happy to meet the BPD7 soon, (not the lecturers, not the assignments, not the goddamnit bursary department people).

Owl

2010-02-24T13:09:00.001+08:00

Greetings.

Time flies, and it's time to go back for new semester. To be honest, I ain't happy for that. I can now imagine the stress-ness since we got Aaron Lam and Ken Goh as our lecturer, this combination is seriously scaring me wei. Quin claims that this is awesome, I couldn't agree more, awesome sleepless nights ya?

p/s: goodbye Eric, come back once you have holiday ya, and please update your blog sikit. XOXO

Plagiarism issue

2010-02-17T14:37:00.005+08:00

This morning I checked my threadless link and I saw something like this :

"oh, cool. you like copying Quakerninja?"
"I thought of Quakerninja too"

I was like, who is Quakerninja? so I went to google him, and I found out that he is also a tees designer who participated in Emptees, Threadless, DBH and more. Honestly, when I look at his artworks on Emptees, I too notice the similarity of the style but please, our works are not the same. I do not copy, I hope that people actually take care of others feeling before they do harsh comments. I have pride, a designer's pride. What if I claim that your work is plagiarism when the work is 100% originally from you? This is unbearable.

I was even more pissed when I found out this : Quakerninja stylebite

We are all creative people, we might come out something looks very alike without notice. There are so many designers out there, can you guarantee your artwork is totally different from others? If you thought so, it is just because you haven't get the similar one, and when you found, you couldn't say people copy your work. It's not like people took your artwork and claim that it's theirs. Sharing the similar style doesn't mean copy, what makes you think others wouldn't come out something you can think of?

I respect Quakerninja for his great drawings, and his understanding of the similar style. For the people out there who claim that I copy, the drawings aren't the same, at ALL ! Line is the most basic design element, go back to your design school if they forgot to teach you this.

idiots.

I'm back

2010-02-14T02:11:00.006+08:00

Hi all, I'm back !

On the first day of chinese new year, I am now exhausted and being thankful for finally done the spring cleaning (almost done!)
Jamie, my sister is now happily watching TV in the living room. Dad and mom are sleeping now and I'm going to join them soon.
I have nothing much to look forward during this new year, we didn't buy many cookies for the new year, nor drinks. This happen since 90% of the family is in the urge of cutting down weight. Cookies are never really that tasty, do not worth for me to gain FATTER and being more unhealthy. I should leave my stomach for something better, like meat =DD I'm just so sinful.

The other thing is, sorry for the plain design of the blog. I'm stuck with the interface design and I have no idea about the codes. Killing me and I decided to give up, pffff.

Anyhow, I'm thinking maybe you can show me some love via score my design kat Threadless. Do you ever hear about this? Honestly, I personally prefer DBH, their tees are a lot nicer, every single tee is great ! Threadless has good design too, but not so impressive if you compare with DBH designers' tee. However, Threadless offer better amount of money so Threadless it is.

So I spent my time to come out this,

I know the design is a bit, naive? Maybe, I don't know but I like it a lot. This is the second one I try. Hopefully see some support from all my beloved friends, let me know if you are one. So how to show me your love? Click here and score my design (sign up first if you are not a member yet), comment if you want to, I don't force.

Here is the brand new start, I'm super lazy to do other thing now. Tapi saya sudah ada plan, hopefully I do work on it.

So, goodnight sisters and brothers. Thank you for spending time here <3<3<3

Selamat Tahun Baru Cina !

Next Time

2009-12-26T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hello,
Merry Christmas!

As you see,
I have lost my passion on blogging
so,

blog closed until the renovation done!

goodbye <3

05122009

2009-12-05T01:29:00.002+08:00

GD is going to has his very first solo concert soon, today, later.
Okay it's damn random, half of you might have no idea who is GD anyway.

Tmr I'm going to KL again, to get the test result of the pathetic lump and to do a little shopping
since I can't eat good food, I can spend on some goods

I am actually boring while I'm waiting files to transfer
therefore I decided to write a little
yet, it's a bit weird since it had been long time I never, actually, write post seriously

Anyhow,

I am now dying to watch a movie, I don't really care what movie is it
can be 2012, can be New Moon, or others
but I can't make it,
since I just did surgery, and my immune system must be bad
and and, now we are on the high alert for a possible second wave for H1N1
so, yeah, can't go for movie, mom warned.

Besides that, I just done my final report for this freaking internship
I have no idea how much I spent for the printing and binding
but do remind me I owe Nick 60MYR can you?

Nickkkk, if you are reading this, mark this down, for your own sake because I am not going to remember this until next year Feb, or March

The fact that I have not do book review is keep disturbing me
but screw it, I am too tired and too late to regret

and I'm keep listening to Fool and 1 year station
I don't read the lyrics but it just sounds real good <3

Finally,
I have done transfer files and going to bed now

God, this post is damn cacat

Byebye.

a random post

2009-12-01T03:01:00.002+08:00

I dislike myself, a lot.

short update

2009-11-01T22:22:00.004+08:00

Hello
It has been long time I never sign in here
as I said, I am busy

I lost the motivation to blog
so many things to update and too many things need to be done
so I'm here to talk a little, before I forget

I have finished my internship with Slipknot
and I am now working on the assignments and freelance job with the company
life ain't getting any better if compare to the pass few months
but I'm home
this is important

And yes, I have a lump on my neck since one month ago
it was big and hard
and now it's getting smaller, and softer
was supposed to do operation
but since it is getting smaller
doctor said we shall decide about this two weeks later
think it will be okay, so no worries

Bestie's brother passed away yesterday
it's saddening and
heartbreaking

I didn't cry though, I still feel like he's alive
I have no idea why I still don't get the truth that I will not see his face anymore
it's too sudden, and too unbelievable

I have no idea how to comfort her
because it seems ridiculous if I thought she will be fine in short period
I will leave her alone and catch her whenever she needs me to

This is life
and I hate life

goodbye.

I miss home

2009-10-03T12:28:00.002+08:00

I am having a really, really busy life
I lost my weekends, ever since I started my internship
even I go back to Kuantan, works follow along
I missed out a lot of fun, missed out all the outings with friends, a lot of good food and movies
It sadden me all the time

I'm stressed
and I need to get rid of it
I want to have some good food, I want to watch a movie, I want to have some freeeeeeeee time

anyhow, I need to go back to work now

and oh shit ! I still have assignments !

HELP needed !

2009-08-28T16:04:00.002+08:00

Dear all,

Please help me on this !
and forward this to everyone you can reach
best if your parents, uncle aunties

check this:

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3 weeks

2009-08-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

and I am still alive.

I know the update is too little, but I am too tired to type any longer.

Just wanted to announce that I'm fine
and expressing my love to our beloved Geraldine Tan Jing Wen
Happy Birthday dear
be fine always, and we <3 you a lot
mwahsss

and I am still cursing the robber.

News

2009-08-02T19:18:00.002+08:00

I know, that I had abandon my blog for too long
more than a month I suppose
anyhow, I'm now coming back here
not to talk much, just some update

yeah, I passed my driving test on 6th of Jul
and got my driving license on the very next day
I was exciting and now found it not
it happens when your family don't even allowed you to drive much, and never let you drive alone, not even around your house
so ..
you know

the next thing is, I am now in my sister bf place, with his family
I am going to stuck, no, stay here for 4 months
I am seriously honestly dunno how to get along with the senior
and when they are my sister bf parent
it is even harder for me
they are surely very friendly, kind and treat me good
but then, it is still very weird for me to stay with them for these long
especially my sister is not around, and I am definitely not allowed to harsh people's feeling when this is not only matter to me, but to my own family too
of cause I don't mean I want to do that, just when things connected to my own family
I don't feel it is easy anymore, in fact, it becomes utterly difficult

besides that, I am going to start my internship tmr
yes ! tmr, omg I am very nervous, you can't imagine that
(of cause you can, many of you went through the same thing)
just I am worst at controlling my nerves
my hands are shaking
seriously shaking
and I dun feel right with my stomach all day long
I don't want the sky to turn dark, and now my room is getting darker
I don't know what to do tmr, I am just plain scared
don't know what should I do on the very first day
and will I make friends?
or the colleagues will just think that I am a totally idiot and ignore me?
bitching behind me?
or welcome me with open armed?
hope things will turn right tmr, I pray

and, I found that my health condition is getting worse day by day
therefore around 3 weeks ago I started to take healthier food, I drink fruit juices everyday
I add on a lot vege inside, something I don't even eat usually
and cut off the amount of meat I eat
still, I can't see myself getting stronger, but fatter

thanks to the vegetables and fruits

I hate them.

I have nothing to say

2009-06-23T01:48:00.002+08:00

yet I still want to say something
which I dunno what thing

chech

I was supposed to have my 4th driving class today
but I called to cancel it
I was not feeling well this morning
and I am so my god nervous
wanted to practice before get Uncle Thiam nagging besides me again
like a nightmare

I do not enjoy my holiday well
so many problems to think
yet cannot be settle by myself
I do realized I am getting more emotional nowadays
and I usually blog when I am down, or happy
according to the record, obviously I am getting moody often if compare
I need something fun to make my life better
like a vacation?
or, erm,
a wedding dinner to attend?
I would like to see something happy happen
rather than seeing more and more bad incidents

the girls at Kuantan are starting to leave by this week
to their bright future
I'm here to wish them all the best
I might go to pay them a visit
as if I got some place to stay over in Kedah
Penang should not be a problem
KL is even better

4 years later everyone is coming out to work
thing is changing
and I hope it is getting better
however, we can always come back home at Kuantan and meet up oftenly

GS ya?

I met up with Kim Hui, my BFF today
went for a movie
'Night at the Museum 2'
quite funny but not the best one
but it is all worth for 6 ringgit only
Had Rasamas with Chu today
it is getting worse
I mean the quality of the food
and the serving

Sigh
I am starting to worry about driving thingy again now
why I can't just hire a driver to fetch me for life time?

oh yeah,
because I can't afford that

signing off,
Tzeyee

The 4 hours

2009-06-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

This morning is very saddening yet annoying
I never hate myself these much before ever since 2007
I know things will be better later
just I hate that I had these disturbing scenes in my mind
urghh
ignore my negative thoughts

well well
I have received a very shocking news today
one of my dear friends just ran away from her house because of the argument
I was so worry when I found out that she had left her house for almost 12 hours, or more than that, or less
and we have totally no idea where was she and how had she been
but sooner I informed that her dad found her and got her back home
I am just relieved and hope that everything will be fine
Thanks God she is safe as she brings nothing with her, as they said

Due to this incident, I realized that it had been long time I didn't talk to her
not to mention meeting each other
I hope sooner we can come out once and have a heart to heart talk
I don't even know how is she looking now
you know, the hairstyle, the dressing way etc
totally clueless

Sigh, again
thing just go differently among us
but I believe that friendship won't die
We have the strong relationship ain't?

GS ! response !

and yes, I had just cooked my dinner by myself again
mommy is just too busy at my sister place
yesterday was my baby Lyn 3rd birthday
she had 3 cakes for her birthday this year
hopefully next year I won't see 4 cakes
imagine when she is 21 years old

er, this is super random ya?
I think I am going to stop here
life is just so dull so I have nothing much to blog anyway

Cheerio !

Signing off,
Tzeyee

0930 . 16062009

2009-06-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

Tell you
I am so damn freaking si beh nervous right now
because tmr morning 9.30 a.m.
I am going to have my first driving lesson ever

and yeah
I am now back home to Kuantan
my home sweet home
these two days spent most of the time at my sis place
baby Lyn is being very naughty yet a sweetie
I don't know how to handle
and still very worry about my internship thingy
you know, the rental and transport are always the big problem
however, now I am confirmed working at Slipknot company
which located at Northpoint
whoever going to Midvalley or The Garden
call me see whether we can catch up for a tea or what
as if I am free enough to do that
I hope I can

I have no idea how my life will be after one month
and I am seriously clueless over tmr driving lesson.

someone, help !

I am starting to miss the BPD05 (2009 Feb batch)
hello to everyone, see you guys soon !

and GS, mana you?

XO,
Tzeyee

It's the Destiny

2009-06-08T15:53:00.003+08:00

Hi, I was now supposed at the badminton court there
seeing my classmates playing badminton
However, my dad forgot to pay the phone bill
and thing changed

They were keep persuading me to go with them, since this might be the one last time
I don't want and I don't feel like going
so I never promise them
but when I see they all looked like wanted me to go
I tell myself 'Ok lar, pergi sajer lar'

so I went back home, changed the outfit
and once I get the message from Shiau Fong asking me going or not
I talked to my housemate a little and went downstairs
to wait for them, since I can't dial out

Well, I don't see them at the downstairs
and since I can't dial out, so I wait
I was thinking they might call me since they know I can't call out
until 1524 p.m.
I'm starting to feel thing goes wrong
as they booked the court at 3p.m.
so I assume they are gone
I was so nothing to do, therefore i tried to call out, to test the line
Surprisingly I am able to call out now
without wasting a minute, I called Ting Ting and asked where are they ..

yeah, they are playing badminton there

I laughed
It is just the God telling me no need to go lar, I think

XO,
Tzeyee

Goodbye

2009-06-06T21:47:00.002+08:00

Hello
It had been quite some time I abandon my blog
and now I'm back
when I am feeling sick, for already 4-5 days
and when I am done with the semester 5 !

I'm happy that I only need to go campus and submit my works
after that I have nothing else to do

YAY

it does makes me feel better
when I know I have nothing big to worry about, anymore
I mean, about the assignment lar
I still have so many problems left behind
like the driving lessons, the rush, the internship, the issue letter, the place to stay and more

thinking about them make me want to puke
now I hope I am sick enough to forget these

I have so much to tell
yet I dunno where to start
things changed and people changed
I changed too
feeling life becomes less motivational
I realized I complained a lot in this semester
which is not a good thing

and I eat less good food but spend more
I spent my money on bad quality food and my assignment of course
I start thinking internship must be good, at least I don't have to buy the art materials and spend money on printing anymore !
I don't need to go KL city or somewhere else with very expensive taxi fees just to do research or buy papers/tools for packaging
for now, this is the very important thing and the only reason I love internship

well, I still dunno how to start
so I just end my post here
will try to share something else when I am in the mood of writing

and yeah, for everyone out there
feel free to borrow me some books to read
best if English so that I can improve my embarrassing language

Goodbye

p/s: I don't think I am having Swine flu, thanks

it's sad

2009-05-12T09:34:00.003+08:00

Today, I do fear of life
and love.

a dinner together

2009-05-10T00:56:00.003+08:00

I was rushing for packaging assignment until the day before yesterday
was so tired as I didn't sleep for 2 whole days
feel so weak when I am walking around the campus
however, it still ends with a disappointing outcome
I must say I Love the big box outside, but definitely not the 20 packs inside
they are awful

Well
Stella, one of my classmates decided to boil chrysanthemum tea for us
and later on she decided to cook some porridge for dinner together
I am glad to have some healthy food here
and I must say her cooking is good
thumb up =)

We gossip a little before we left
later that I realized it is the first time I actually talk to Ming li these much
I know her for quite some time, like 2 years
and we only had dinner together for 2 times so far
I wonder why
yet I'm happy to share a night time with they girls
and thanks to Stella for the healthy meal
it must helps me from getting sick

may God bless you for the music box computer

I <3 you girls

Anice Lau Ming Li, if you are reading this
I must tell

I heart you and your Ming Li Jie character <3

With <3s,
Tzeyee

h o m e

2009-05-01T08:19:00.002+08:00

Hi,
I'm back !

and later I am going back to home sweet home with my sister's Oscar
like finally, I am confirmed going back to home
parent was concern, kept calling me for the decision
but I am not the one to decide
they are certainly got to the wrong person

anyhow
they will see my big face soon.

Besides,
please concern about the swine flu issue now
click here to get more information
or just google 'swine flu' to know more

may God bless all of us.

Love,
Tzeyee

her name is Tzeyee

2009-04-19T22:05:00.003+08:00

2 hours later my term break will officially reaches the end
I done nothing effective during this break
but I'm happy I done the 3 sets characters of Typography class
more than half of the class did
and now half of us have nothing Big to worry about for this Thursday

thought to do something for the journals
but I have putting too less effort on it
it turns out I did nothing for that
I mean Nothing
I have my mind stuck with the commercial and the natural packaging
I am starting to sick of spices and Astromax

I guess I should never design anything I like
I will still sick of it too

for instance, I am no longer like the Beryl's chocolate as much as I did
and I am sick of Claire de Lune
besides, I dislike the term phobia
not to mention I hate Yaris
well, they are always some exception
I still like Helvetica and Sakura

Well, I am going to meet Ken Goh tmr
how my day will be is all depends on him
you see, my happiness are depend on the lecturers

remember how she spoiled my days by telling me how stupid I am
it is a nightmare
the most horrible morning I ever had in my life, so far

I still remember the rejections from Ken Goh
and the very embarrassing moment
this is one of the hardest moments in my life too

I have no idea how worst my life can be for being a design students
and totally no idea how worst my life will be for working in design industry
but the point is I still like to design
I don't really want to be better than everyone out there
I will never be the best, I know
I just want my work to be appreciated
and one day, someone at the opposite of the world will also know my name
from the designs I have created, for years they will remember it and the designer name, which is mine

it is a goal that hard to achieve
but I am still young, I dare to say
I will try, I will have one day people recognize my name with my designs.

To leave a sign in this world, before I'm gone.

Tzeyee

I know, I Love you too

2009-04-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

She is a mother
she is blissful by having two adorable children and a very caring, responsible husband
her parent loves her
so do her sisters

She is very emotional, I can tell
and very sensitive
she is too easy to get hurt
but she doesn't shows

And now
her youngest sister misses the time they spent together

remember the old time, when the young sister is sitting inside the car, listening to the music,
accompany her to drive around the town
remember the old time, when they are watching tons of movies during midnight time,
her sister cooks supper to share
remember the old time, when her sister is reading, she tells her the stories,
the crazy memories she has
remember the old time, when her sister is not studying for the exam,
she scolds her and helps her on studies
remember the old time, when they went to Taman Gelora, to get some snacks to eat,
they share the food
remember the old time, when she is bringing her sister to join her Christmas dinner,
and it's her sister first time Christmas dinner in her life
remember the old time, when they are playing Play Station together,
her sister learns her first bad words from her

and remember that after so many years
She tells her sister ' Please take good care of yourself, even though I have kids now doesn't means I do not sayang you anymore. '

and her sister wants to tell

' I know, I Love you too '

With all my heart,
Tzeyee

miss.

2009-04-18T09:46:00.002+08:00

I miss my family
they are not coming over next week
Huge disappointment.

I miss GS
we can't manage to talk heart to heart this time
Slightly sad.

I miss my chicken angel
didn't see her for months
Loud sigh.

I miss Chu
she is too busy to entertain me, as usual
Tsk tsk.

I miss everyone out there,
too less I can do.

Love,
Tzeyee

The List goes on

2009-04-16T12:57:00.002+08:00

Holiday ends
and now I was back to Desaria Villa
what a pain to wave goodbye to my family
but the good thing is some of them are coming over next week
I am expecting it

Today, 3 groups of us finally finished our first presentation of our 3 sets of characters
I feel released and happily updating my blog now
Anyhow I still have many things to do
my room mate asked ' So you finished your assignments? '
No, certainly no
The List goes on people
I guess I will never get to rest until I done my final submission of all

I am feeling homesick now
the feeling grows stronger when most of them are going back home today
and some of them are going to Genting Highlands later

er, buy me things okay
even though I dunno what to buy also lar
*grins*

Well,
I am going to spend some time doing nothing effective but relaxing
catch up with the world later

p/s: I Love my nieces, they are precious.

With all my heart,
Tzeyee

Dom

2009-04-11T07:46:00.002+08:00

I am going back home soon later
and now I am going to campus, to show Gloria the patterns
freaking nervous right now
I don't know what will she says

and recently will not update my blog
unless my assignments allowed me to do that

see you people soon in Kuantan
and to my dearie classmates

Happy Holiday !

p/s: Lawrence student is always his student.

With all my heart,
Tzeyee

He's sick

2009-04-05T12:31:00.005+08:00

I am feeling sad for him
and suddenly life scared me
his smiling face keeps appear in my mind
I am hardly to forget the scenes he was talking to me
I am so remember every tutorial section I had with him
It's sad, I am kind of missing him, even his criticism over my works

and now I'm feeling a little lost

Take care.

Tzeyee

Go Home

2009-03-27T01:53:00.002+08:00

27032009 . Friday . It's just 1.54 a.m. now

I am feeling down today
skipped lunch as the tutorial sections I had today were really upset me
I hope things will not get any worst
it's either I can take it or not, and obviously I still can't

Nevertheless
I had made my mind,
I decided to throw my previous idea into the rubbish bin
instead of stuck on this idea, why I don't I try something else
hopefully it works
or else
more tissue and more mind-maps
that's what I can do.

I doubt how nerve it will be to have tutorial with them anymore
when you can't think, no one can force you to think well
even lecturer is starting to threaten you with the marks
just can't think it out, what to do?

Anyway, I am going home on next Monday
I am little bit excited yet worry
and concern about the mother who is going to give birth
hope she is doing well and feeling better now

I actually just wanted to express myself a little
I was doing Advertising brainstorming thingy and now still working on it
don't forget Lawrence work is there waiting for me to finish up
I doubt, maybe the next good sleep will be in the bus when I am on the way back to hometown
how pathetic it is

Designer's life
do you still want to be a Designer?

I am,
but still advice you to think twice.

sometimes I get a little bit mean and cruel, to certain people. God, please forgive me for my naive act but I still don't want to change it.

p/s: Eric Chih ! Thank you for found my precious Beryl's packaging
I know you were kidding about this, but I owe you a thank you so I still blog it out

and to my semester 4 Graphic design lecturer, I will remember you, for how you treat my designed packaging. How dare you are.

Tzeyee

I don't want to say Goodbye

2009-03-21T20:19:00.007+08:00

Was talking to my housemates about the rental thingy
since next semester I will going for internship
which scaring me a lot
I need to move out from my place here
or else, I need to be really rich to pay two places rental fees
and since I'm not
so I still have to move out

This place do means a lot to me
memories we called that
with Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen
the happiness and crazy moments <3
and with Jia Ying Chua
the Chipster, and the sudden cries

I am seriously don't want to leave
but I dunno what else I can do
so, like it or hate it
I still have to move out

Reen, I miss you a lot all in sudden
it's kinda out of control

you should really come back once before I move out

Bestie <3

Miso

Good Food ! or not.

2009-03-21T17:42:00.014+08:00

I should really post up this few days ago
but due to the endless assignments given
I was almost hopeless to make it

Anyhow
I am finally, can spend some time on this

As I said, DA JIE sponsors me to Jogoya for lotsa good food
and it ends up differently
we didn't have too much good food
especially for me, I was expecting many different kind of cooked beef
but the only thing I can eat, and like to eat is chicken
cooked in different yet almost the same way

the stingy girl like me, dun want to waste my money
so I decided to give up on chicken
and go to Haagen Dazs (=
I had plenty of it
every flavor there I tasted
so I felt a little bit better
telling myself I am not wasting a lot money also

you cannot imagine how many ice cream I had until I felt so full
you know, eating ice cream never make me full
I think if I go for the next time, I will have the better arrangement on which food I should take first and last
I missed some good food I wanted to try
but never mind
I still have a lot of chance ain't
perhaps I should go for other places at that time

Pictures time :

Should starts these with the lobster, the only food looks good in plate I can get

slurp!

classmate Wan Jou
she is eating and her eyes are talking to you, wahh

classmate Shiau Fong
she is eating a lot but still is thin
you will be very happy to have meal with her
she makes food looks good (=
see her satisfied face

classmate Ting Ting and her boy
these two are very horrible in eating sushi
only eating the toppings and threw the rice aside
anyhow, clever (=

Classmate Teri
she loves food too, and I always get car sick when she drives
my my
thank you for the ride

Classmate Stella
She must loves lobster
or she only pose this for the camera
she is absolutely looks prettier in real life
and this is only photo of her I have in my camera
What to Do ?

Classmate Quin
The one who likes to eat good food too !
I realize she is recently making this kind of face expression a lot when taking picture
I feel so good when I am no longer the only one in the uni gang doing this face expression
and Quin, I remember when foundation semester one
I keep showing this face to you and it seems disgusted you
Aiyoooooo
not good

Yours truly, Tzeyee
not happy because I can't eat this lobster
but they told me it tastes bad
ha ha
nothing to loss then XD

and

Satisfied with ice cream, my darling.

Lots of ice cream,
Tzeyee

cloud nine

2009-03-17T14:05:00.003+08:00

even though you asked me to control a bit about the usage of the word 'love'
I still cannot stop myself for shouting ' DA JIE I Love you '
for sponsor me 50MYR for the Food
so that I can still manage to settle my meals for the rest of the month
and go for Jogoya tonight !
this is the most meaningful 50 bucks I ever have
soon I will spend it away, but I will gonna remember this 50 bucks forever XD

DA JIE, my dear sister, Thank You !

this is the very normal smiling face of me specially for u
as u always ask me to pose normal a bit for the camera

XOXO,
Tzeyee

Ouch

2009-03-17T09:21:00.004+08:00

17032009 . Tuesday . Seem good

It's very hard for me to make this decision
I am so craving for good, delicious food
I Live to Eat, and feeling better when biting on those mouth-watering master piece of the chef
BUT !
What to do, I am so goddamnit broke now, cannot afford any extra expense
nothing is sadder than this, screw myself for spent too much on past two weeks
and screw the lecturer for making me spent thousands for the pathetic assignments
well, since finishing is so important
what to Do lar ..

Ouch !

Give me give me, give me all your money

p/s: In case you are reading this, shhh, don't tell Stella.

With empty stomach,
Tzeyee

War between money and Food

2009-03-16T13:22:00.002+08:00

16032009 . Monday . Sun

Hi, it's good to be here
I mean, in the room with air-con and fan both switch on
It's pretty hot outside
I felt so sick just now in the bus
I doubt if I faint
luckily I'm not, God must loves me

I plan to not eat lunch
No no no, I am not on diet, it never works
It's about money
I spent too much for the past two weeks
Too much, so I now need to tie up my belt and save money for the rest of the month
I promised to myself try to not take any money from my family until April
which means I have to spend 30MYR wisely on these 15 days
2 ringgit each day, Aza !

actually I don't believe on myself in this case, ouch, 2 ringgit, how to die lar

Anyhow, I cannot feel any better than yesterday
I had a conversation with my dear, I don't know what to talk to her until I spot something at the facebook
I know she did her best for me, it's so overbearing but she still did it for me
I don't know what to say, but Thank you
I really, really appreciate it
and jie, thanks
I know you are the one behind this
I feel that I was so dumb for the past few days
I should know you guys are willing to do anything for me
I am blessed, I have the best friendships in the world

I love you, dears.

I shall log off now for assignments
you can never imagine how hard it can be
Gloria, Lawrence and Ken
I love you but hate you
it's too complicated for me to handle

Ouch !

Loves,
Tzeyee

It's another day

2009-03-15T16:37:00.004+08:00

15032009 . Sunday . It's not raining

Saturday was tough
I hate that things still not be done even I sat on the bookstore floor from afternoon until night
I should really take a photo to show you guys !
but I'm too busy for that.

I don't really know how my life will be at the end of the semester
I had a long conversation with my housemate yesterday when we are on the way back to Desaria Villa
we were discussing about the rental thingy since I might, or not moving out from my place for next semester
because I am going for internship
I have too much things to worry of
the list go on and you will never see the end.

Anyhow !
I'm feeling better if compare to few days ago
I try not to bother it so much
so I can get a better life
Thank you jie, even I didn't listen to your advice
you still comfort me by concern about this, and trying to cheer me up
I appreciate it a lot, much more than you can imagine.

I Love my family
I Love my GS
I Love my besties

What else?

I Love Food and Shan Bear.

p/s: to my dear sister, cheer and relax, everything will be good ! I Love you, and we are always by your side.

Loves,
Tzeyee

Expressing ..

2009-03-14T01:29:00.003+08:00

I'm crying a lot, I hate to see that.

it's too much.

Spell s,a,d

2009-03-11T17:03:00.003+08:00

11032009 . Wednesday . It's raining outside

I was feeling extremely disappointed when I was checking facebook awhile ago
I could not describe the sadness when I see that
it's like you feel that lemon is being cutting apart in your heart, you feel so sour and bad, just want to cry out loud for your own sake, and tears just not enough helping on this
we need to do more thing to calm the anger and the sadness, like chopping things down or have a great bite on meat, then chew it, and cry again.

I am totally, helpless on this
I thought you should understand this well and prevent things to happen
but you just did it without even realize this
I am very disappointed, sad and angry
I was about to pick up the phone and call you
to tell you all my feeling on this thing
but I just can't
I am feeling you are so far from me all in sudden
Suddenly I could not get a strong reason to blame you
and it sounds sad, and strange
like we are not close friend, in fact, I think you are but I not sure whether you think the same or not
close enough to do this for me, and obviously, you didn't.

p/s: I'm here to wish Jia Jia and Eva all the best tmr, no worries, I'm sure it must be good (=

signing off,
Tzeyee

Something I want to tell you.

2009-03-11T00:50:00.007+08:00

11032009 . Wednesday . Who knows

Happy Belated Birthday to my Old man, the world best father in my heart - 10/03
I Love you papa, I know you must not reading this, but I still have a little confession to you here, perhaps sister will shows you this.

I might not be the best daughter in the world, in fact, I'm not
but we three, your three girls, love you no matter what happened
and thanks God for blessing us always
I appreciate it fully and I swear to appreciate every days here we spend together.

No one else loves you more than us, your beloved wife and daughters, plus your son-in-law and your little precious grandchildren.

So, treat us better even you already treat us very good (=

Next, will be my dear Quin's 22nd Birthday, I just want to highlight your age

Happy Belated Birthday Quin !
God knows how good I treat you, and you know too ain't XD
even though many of you in the class mean a lot in my heart, you just a slightly special one
spent too much time eating good food together, that's why =p

May all your dreams come true, and get to know somebody who are able to attract you
so you no need ask God to save you anymore

Next year, I will buy you ice-creams, Haagen-Dazs alright !

Now is my dears' turn
To the STPM candidates in GS and my Beloved Chu Kim Hui

I am really proud of you all
some of you might not satisfied with the result but God,
it's good enough okay
take it easy and enjoy your holiday to the bits
and buy me souvenirs from Redang, Thanks !
Love you all deep from the heart, come come
Hugs and Mwahs.

Lucky day it is, I hope.

can we have semester break now?
make it for months please.

With lots of Love,
Tzeyee

Wrong focus point

2009-03-08T01:08:00.007+08:00

08032009 . Sunday . Not sure yet

Time flies
and I still got ton of assignments to finish up
gosh, I did nothing today but spent over hundred for only food and groceries
and the best part is, I had worst dinner ever in Rasamas
and ! I just bought yogurts, eggs, mango and vege for grocery part
I am seriously doubt about where I spent my money on
so I did calculated all these bills
only I found out I had actually spent almost 40ringgit on pathetic foods
saddening lur, I feel so moody when I look at my dinner
lunch was good, just the soup is too salty
but I will definitely go for it next time
and try to settle the soup problem

Wonder what so good?

it's Vietnamese Beef Noodle Soup from Secret Recipe,

and what is my worst order in Rasamas?

see? I lost my appetite immediately
the onlyforillustrationused picture does looks nice

and successfully fooled me to order it
Sigh
and it cost me MYR16
which I can make it looks better, and taste better with more reasonable price
I can get plenty of drumstick at Cold Storage with only less than 10ringgit
then the vegetables I can get it with few cents, looks fresh and much better than it
the drinks?
even Limkokwing TenTen selling it at 2ringgit only
the Japanese Toufu?
Totally crap
I can make it so much better than this
with cheaper price
all over also no need 12ringgit lur
and the size will be triple than this
My my
never order this at Rasamas
never mind to be expensive
and never mind to be taste not so good
but at least serve it with better look mar
make it looks cleaner can ah
now you make it like hawker stall food
even hawker stall food served with better looking.

Ohh
must also talk about A&W
I had Waffle in Mug yesterday in Alamanda's A&W
Awesome !
I am more prefer strawberry syrup on vanilla ice cream topping lar of course
but this Waffle in Mug taste good too
the most important part is it is in reasonable amount
The common waffle just too much for one person
so if A&W get their Waffle in Mug with Strawberry syrup and Vanilla Ice cream
then it would be the Best

I was craving for waffle
so until I finished up the whole mug only I realized I forgot to take picture
Too good =)

Please do not miss understand about my purpose going to Alamanda
it is not about food hunting
it is about taking photo
I was very lucky, the most lucky person ever
everytime I wanted to take photo outdoor
it started to rain
and this happened for 4 or 5 times

plus, there is nothing good to take photo
how pathetic my day is

so the only thing I shall feel happy with are the Waffle in Mug, Secret Recipe's Vietnamese Beef Noodle soup and plenty of yogurts.

Foods.

Aiks, too much things left behind
I better catch up with the assignments later morning when I woke up
and after brunch.

Dear God, can I have more time
not much
just 48 hours a day is good

Nah, I know it's crap
I am just being silly

because I got no good dinner recently.

p/s: making sandwich tomorrow, or not.

Love,
Tzeyee

The Oil and Smoke

2009-03-05T18:14:00.007+08:00

05032009 . Thursday . Raining

Happy Birthday to my beloved GS Lim Mecha
may all your wishes come true, and you can make your life even better
have a blessed year ahead babe, Love you.

Hello people,
it have been sometime I didn't update my blog as frequent as last time
as I mentioned before,
I cooked with my housemates and the dinner that night was, awful
I don't want to talk more about it, nightmare okay

The Foods:

Anyhow, the vege is good, best of that night.
and the dramatic ending part comes
I fell down from the chair
Ha Ha
seriously I might be really fat and heavy
to cause the chair broken then I fall down immediately, without any hint before it
Ouch, imagine the pain
lucky or not, it hurts no where but my buttock

and and
Yesterday I die die also want to cook again
I went to Midvalley days ago with Quin and Stella
I saw the Japanese Curry sauce pack
so I bought it, plus some chicken and potato
just because I am craving for curry and potato
and it ends up pretty good
my housemates claimed that it must be the curry sauce itself is good
yea lar I admit, I did nothing much also
credits to the curry sauce, Chech !

anyhow, atlast we had a good dinner
next time shall make some for my dear classmates
take at your own risk dears

We forgot to take pictures because we were all hungry and can't wait to finish them up, ouch.

Later I'm going to buy Ramleey burger downstairs
and guess what
I am going to do a Ramleey sandwich by myself soon
May God bless the Experimental mouse Housemates

or I am going to fried some nuggets, for snacks.

FATs.

Love,
Tzeyee

Confession from the Heart

2009-03-01T18:17:00.002+08:00

Ignore this if you are not knowing me at the beautiful peaceful city named Kuantan
and still ignore this if you never see my tears dropping in front of you
nevertheless, crying for movie/drama doesn't count

For years, I hated someone so much until that I refused to see and hear anything about her
She was someone special to me, and it makes the thing worst
I'm not only one time found that she was backstabbing me and bitching about me
I might be the worst people ever, but I don't think I deserve that
If she thinks I am this worst and she is hating me these much, then she should just ignore me at the first time
but not pretends to be good and changes her mind all the time, then telling people she can no longer stands of me, then changes her mind again

I am enough of all these annoying actions
I was really thought she is a good friend to be with
but after I hear so much things she said about me
so much things she did on me
and so much things I found and realized

I will never, ever forgive her
even though I can no longer find a reason to hate her
after so many years I don't see her
after so many years we don't keep contact
she is no harm to me now
but I just can't make it
she is not the worst people ever I met
but she is the one not forgiven
why ?
because she meant so much to me
and I once, or more than that, treat her with all my heart
I paid so much trust on her, and disappointments never end

She might thinks I make thing looks big
maybe she never see me as someone important to her before
that's why she can forget things this soon
but I can't
I can't even accept people I love close with her
I can't even accept people I love greet with her
imagine this, you should know how much I hate her, and how much she meant to me years ago

I am sorry to my beloved friends whom I'm forcing them to be mean
but I just can't accept this
thinking the possibility they might act nice to her make me crazy
For some of them I can't do anything, because they are close with her for so long time
but for some of them who are not close with her anymore, or yet
I don't let them to be nice, even once
I must admit I am overbearing on this
but please
I really can't
until now I still can't bear with myself to allow this happens
I can't, I Can't !

Please, to my darlings and dears
forgive me for being like this
I am mean on this, and sorry for making you to be mean too
for my sake, to prevent I scream and shout for sadness
can you allowed me to be a mean friend for once?

I'm sorry to her too, but still I hate her.

If you wonder why I post this up suddenly
I just feel that I should share my thoughts with some of my darlings
in case they are not really understand about how important this thing mean to me.

Loves and Hate,
Tzeyee

some Craps

2009-02-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

* Today is 27th of Feb, 09
* I am so, so depressed right now
* I might ( or not ) save some money for my own sake
* I'm hungry
* I was surprised or should say shocked during yesterday late evening
* I miss my chicken angel a lot, a lot
* I have no idea what to do for Advertising and Typography class
* I am excited yet worry for these both module, seem good but scary
* I can still feel the fall down pain, * cursed *
* I want to eat some meat
* Day ago I had steamboat dinner with some of my classmates, thumb up !
* Stella can cook, and I can't
* Had Seremban siew bao from Ting Ting, slurp
* I am deeply worry about something
* I miss my family, and no doubt sister, I love you all even I missed out myself most of the time during CNY
* Still depressed now

No disturb.

Signing off,
Tzeyee

show me your Writing

2009-02-25T23:21:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen

The rule is write everything with yr hand.

1.Your name
2.Left handed/right handed.
3.Favourite alphabet to write.
4.Least favourite alphabet to write
5.Write down " The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog"(Notice it contains all alphabet in this sentence)
6.Name 6 of people you're gonna tag.

You can do this either in blog/FB/both.

Sekian,
Terima Kasih.

p/s: I only tag 5 people, ops !

Food Poison, or not.

2009-02-24T13:18:00.002+08:00

24 Feb 2009 . Tuesday . it's not raining, yet

Class had started yesterday
and it is interesting
not the lecturing content
but the lecturer
he is presenting himself very well
and I laugh and smile most of the time while he is teaching
I feel good, for having him but no others to teach me this module

anyhow
the class itself might not be too interesting
some claimed that it sounds like design management class
I personally think it might be better than design management
or not, you bet.

Yesterday night went Tesco hypermarket with my housemates and Quin
Housemates and I bought ingredient for cooking today's dinner
I invited Quin and I think my cooking skill is scary enough for her to say No
anyway I don't mind she thinks like that since I secretly or openly think I am the worst in cooking
however, today might be mun yee, my housemate doing the cooking part
I will be the one who decides what to eat, and to give a little help
me think

Wish that it will be good, if so, next time will ask the classmates to join
as if they are willing to take the risk

War is going to start soon, sooner or later this evening
and yet some of my dearie classmates are now in Pyramid, happily enjoying their singing session.

Wish me luck, wish us luck.

Gonna update soon !

p/s: Hands shaking.

Love,
Tzeyee

D for Desaria villa

2009-02-20T14:24:00.002+08:00

20 Feb 2009 . Friday . It's Hot outside

Hello mortals
nice to see you here again, most of you.

For your information, I am now in Desaria villa, the many people move out from here condominium
surfing through internet, doing nothing productive, watching anime and drama, gossiping around, crying for leaving home, missing family, GS and friends, complaining for the fan and many other stuff.

and I kinda love, just not the leaving home, missing people I love and complaining parts.
Ops, and I do kill ants everyday, cleaning up everyday, scratching all these days.

I am little bit not comfortable with the monitor, mine was sent to the center to repair
and the new one will be coming not that soon
at the end of March
so I am now using sister's Oscar's monitor
it doesn't has a speaker
it so much worst when I need to use a headphone and I threw it off the day before I realize this
so I have to borrow one from my housemate
for my anime, drama, and song's sake.

Class is going to start soon, next Monday
and I am not well prepare for this
the assignments, the lecturers, the tutorials, the problems

All in sudden I miss chicken angel and jia ying chua a lot
the time we spent here in G dom and Desaria villa
yesterday I went to Dragon view which near Tesco for Bakkuteh
we ate a lot, and we make it separately
I secretly wish my chicken angel and jia ying will be there with me
I miss the time we shared all the foods
I simply miss they two so much, sooo much.

Mentioned about yesterday, I went to Tesco with my two housemates
and my roomie was there too
but she spent her time alone
when we are wating the bus to go back
I can't see her around
since I am quite understand her keep missing bus routine, I called her twice
and she doesn't pick up the phone
Fine then, I shall wait
sometimes later, bus came and when I am sitting in the bus
I don't see her yet, so I call again and rush her since bus is still there
minutes later, bus gone and she is still not coming
I texted her and tell the poor thing the bus gone
and minutes later, when the bus is almost reach IOI mall
she called and asked me to stop the bus, she is on her way
I was like, ahh how to stop it? We are so far away.
then the bus soon full and pack since he is fetching people from IOI mall too
I felt bad and when I reached home, I called again to offer good taxi driver number
but she said her friend's bf will picks her up
good, she found the solution
but then hours later, she came back and she told me she took taxi to come back and he charged her 30ringgit plus.

I was and am still speechless.

How come she never calls me? and How come she is keep missing the bus after so many times she missed it?

Good luck E.

p/s: Oh my goodness, Doris and Wei Hong, surprised me seriously.

and Happy Belated Birthday to my Huiting, one of my precious one. I Love you =)

Signing off,
Tzeyee

It is either a full stop or a questions mark.

2009-02-13T23:56:00.005+08:00

Before I start anything, Happy Valentine's day to every couple in the world.

Yesterday I went to ELIT for amali, 6 hours spent there, and few more hours waiting there.
The weather is really hot and annoying at the same time, I got really sick after I came back from there, headache.
However, I made new friend yesterday, and the world is so small.
People I knew through ELIT are either secondary school juniors or sister of people I know.
I spent 3 whole hours doing nothing with two of them, both are sister of people I know, one is elder and another one is younger.
I could not believe that when I first heard Pauline told me her sister's name
I should know that, I got the strong feeling they might related to each other when I first saw her
I don't know why, I never see her sister before though
and Siew Wai, Siew Yan's sister
We knew each other when we were there for Undang course, and we went for test together
She didn't talked much when the first day we met
but after that, she is really friendly and talking a lot, like me.
Usually I don't, but when you really get bored, you talk more.

The 3 hours are really awfully boring, I forced them to tell me anything but they have nothing to tell, nothing at all.
So I made calls to people might be free
and none of the conversation spent more than 15 minutes.

I took a nap hours ago
was feeling really sick
and I had a dream
I could not recall back the dream
but when I woke up
my heart is aching and my eyes are wet

Almost 2 years, we shared the ups and downs, partly.
Now I treat you almost like a stranger, there are too much to explain.
There are plenty of memories left, and awkwardness.

It's about a broken friendship, if you wonder.

p/s: I have no doubt ./?

She has a Boyfriend

2009-02-11T03:08:00.004+08:00

First of all,
Happy Birthday to my darling sweetheart voonvoon
may all her dream comes true and she is getting taller and taller
same goes to myself, anyway

Few days ago I went to meet my sister, JiaJia
as I mentioned on my previous post
she is getting slimmer, and taller
I actually warn her not to wear high heels
It's pathetic

I am not really feeling awkward for being with her even we didn't meet each other for quite some time
She is doing fine, I'm sure
and some shocking news to share
I'm happy to meet her in time before she goes to Taiwan for study
I'm here wish her all the best there, having fun and got no one bully her
Last but not least, come back to bake many mouth watering cake for me, or tart, or bread, or biscuit

I watched The Pink Panther II with her
and I'm glad we make this decision
it's awesome
I like this movie, a lot
I am having a great memory with her before she left to Taiwan I guess

Besides meeting with sister
Yesterday I went out with my precious one, Chu Kim Hui
for movie, Red Cliff II
another great one
with the really cheap price
and we had a good long chat
even better
I had Sundae Cone and Potato Chips =)

Later on,
I went to Crocodile Rock with Loe, Melissa, Shenyee, Tim and Voonvoon !
for voonvoon's birthday
we do not really celebrate her birthday
but only two slice cake to share
and end up she didn't really eat them
anyhow
glad I can meet her on her birthday eve
she is really a sweetheart

I'm staying home tmr
for my own sake
should start packing my things back to Desaria
omg, I don't want go back there, please, help, someone please postpone the date.

I know I'm talking silly.

Tzeyee and her beloved sister, Jia Jia.

I can't fight this feeling anymore

2009-02-07T02:33:00.003+08:00

Horton hears a Who !

I watched an animation, Horton hears a Who !
I like this animation a lot, it's meaningful yet the drawing is nice
I like how they start the story too

anyway !
Hello people, are you having a nice day?
I saw a bad news through facebook
it is pretty shocking for me to see it
I just hope thing will being fine and I support every decision she makes, in this matter
since this is about her, not me

I am currently confusing about which major to
I had forgotten about it until I met Quin in Msn, some days ago
I asked about her decision and
she told me she hasn't decides yet
so am I
for me there are not much difference among them
I am not going to advertising film for work in my future
I am enough of stressful life, I just don't want things getting worst
I am not much interested in marketing too
but I will definitely sick of keep drawing same thing over and over again
and the final projects the lecturer showed us are freaking me out
so tell me, which one is better?
somehow I am going to learn the things too
I am going to learn how to do a website too, by myself or asking others to teach
it doesn't means if I go for this, I will not know anything about another one
it is just about which one I want to spend most of my time on
and which one I want lecturer from LUCT to tutorial me
which one I am going to learn and show the result in my cert
that's the matter, and that's why it is very confusing

Oh my, it is freaking me out
before I start my stressful campus life
I am starting to push myself here, before the holiday ends

Tmr I am going out to meet my sis, Jia Jia for movie
I am pretty nervous since she is driving
I have no idea about her driving skill
and I am so much older than her
before I got my license, she is fetching me first
shame of myself

Tmr will be a busy day
from morning to afternoon
and I am expecting The Pink Panther II will be good

I got my card reader back !

I don't want to

2009-02-03T02:11:00.002+08:00

Today is the 9th day of the Chinese New Year
I can feel the emptiness in myself
ever since Reen went back to Sunway
the New year seems quiet
I can't feel the Chinese New Year unique mood anymore
It's pathetic
and I'm going to back for new semester starts soon
It's terrible
I hate it when the holiday is going to end
the assignments, and the buses, the presentation, the shame of being weird
I am totally dowan to leave home

I am currently busy
too many thing to worry about
I am going to see you guys soon in two weeks time
and I guess it's time for me to loose some weight
please send me some secret recipe if you have one
I need it and I mean it

Anyhow
this Chinese New Year is not fun if compare with the previous ones
I am not happy
just thank God I still have my niece to make me smile, a lot
and some of my besties of course.

With lots of Love,
Tzeyee

I'm watching Anime, again

2009-01-26T03:50:00.003+08:00

26th Jan 2009 . Monday . It's raining

0353 a.m.
I am still awake, even I'm tired

Anyhow
I got my CPU back from KL some days ago
and yesterday finally I got it settled
now I'm using it
it seem so familiar, just the screen is a bit weird
since I'm using my sister's
I don't use to it yet

I was hungry just now
craving for some food so I asked whether there are some food left
so that my mom reheat the leftovers, which is eatable
and now, I am dying for eating too much

that's why I am still awake.

I have no idea what to talk about, actually
just that I have nothing better to do, and the anime does not attracts me
yess, I am watching them again, like finally
I miss them a lot, and when I am viewing the files
I feel like Desaria, and I can smell the assignments, which is horror

I just realized it had been long time I didn't upload the latest photos
it makes the post seem a little bit dull
I know I seldom upload photo too, usually
I have some pictures to show, mine and the others
to tell some stories
but it seem just impossible
I left my card reader in my camera bag
and it is now in Oscar's house

and I didn't do design, yet
I should work hard on it before holiday ends
I wish I could done something I promised
so that I can at least post up something before I back to Cyberjaya

Many people is moving out from their place
I wish no big changes
I love when my classmates are staying in Desaria, if they move too far, I could not seek for help easily anymore
and I will miss them a lot if I don't see them frequently
I am now can imagine Quin's reaction
so geli! , her thought

I am feeling sleepy now, will not care about the fats anymore
say hoooray to the lovely bed
I hope it will be the comfy night, or morning

See you people soon tmr, or else
days later

Good night,
or Good morning.

Love,
Tzeyee

Say Hello to The Ox

2009-01-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

Hello people
Happy Chinese New Year
may all of you have fun and enjoy it fully

anyhow
finally done with the hard works
and the next will be the extreme fun, hopefully

I had a satisfied dinner yesterday
it was awesome
I am not only amazed by the dishes
but also the whole family sit down together and had a long talk
too bad Dear sister couldn't join
since she was rushing, I shall not complain more

I have nothing more to say
since everyone is busying with their stuff
so, have fun and don't forget to control your diet
for your own sake, of course

I love you all.

Love,
Tzeyee

p/s: Not forget to wish Eric Vooi Happy Birthday, may all your dreams come true.

Incredible Tiring days

2009-01-25T04:09:00.003+08:00

25th Jan 2009 . Sunday . It's Hot

Tmr will be the first day of Chinese New Year
I am excited, yet tired
I hardly see when my works will end
definitely don't want it to be until the very last minute of today
we worked pretty hard yesterday
sister, mom and I
baby wanted to help, but too young to really make thing works
anyhow it is lovely, even though it might be troublesome sometime

I can barely feel Chinese New Year this year
besides the great cleaning, which is killing me, a lot
my palms are hurt, I feel seriously painful when I am touching anything
and I hurt my finger again yesterday
for unnecessary thingy
I was washing a rubbish bin
and it is going to be thrown today
I thought I am crazy
and now I know I'm silly

Today will be the harsh one
couldn't picture how am I going to be
but thank God everything will be fine soon, or sooner
I believe that

Tmr will be the great one
It is going to be the great start of the new year
I will enjoy it to the bits
so that I can have no regret for my life
I personally, secretly think that this year might be the last year we all can gather together, with the most amount of us
you can tell
when Bel is no longer coming back for Chinese New Year
now we lost one
and don't mention about the others like Mel, Manday, Muneeee, Mei Siew etc
I really hope this year's will be good

Since tmr is the day
I'm might not blogging, or even more often
I don't know
it's depends

I think I am going to meet Reen later on, the afternoon
she is just passing by to pass me something
and I am glad to take a break to see some other faces I love
for example, her
and Koh Li Wuen, if she can makes it
for the other members of GS
I am hoping to meet you guys on the first day of Chinese New Year
some goes to you, Chu

I should go to bed now
ever wonder why I'm this late to bed since I am so tired ?
I'm just finished reading Twilight, and since I couldn't find the other 3
so I google it, found the summary through wikipedia
and now I had lost all the interest to read through the other 3
anyway, the first book is great, I love it a lot

With all my love,
Tzeyee

p/s: wish you all have the incredible, mouth watering meals from now on

Points

2009-01-21T02:54:00.002+08:00

I am lazy to write an essay
so ll make it as point form

I met with Chu on Monday
I am craving for movies
I am watching a korean drama
I was on a diet plan but soon failed
I love my family
I miss my Darling sister
I am looking forward for GS gathering
I want to gamble
I love my Dear sister for sayang me and when she is not scolding me
I love my niece to the bits
I am looking forward to April
I don't want go back for new semester
I am worrying about internship thingy
I am blissful to have my family, even we shout at each other
I am proud to be my family's family

I love to breath, I love to live.

Cheers,
Tzeyee

p/s: Nigel is having his birthday on Jan too, he reminded me.

Pissed off

2009-01-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

I am totally seriously not in mood
I am enough of this
I am not going to do this anymore

Enough is Enough

I am not going to be happy for this whole shitty night

Your bad!

Birthdays

2009-01-16T03:31:00.002+08:00

I just realized I have bunch of friends are having birthday on January

First of all would be my beloved Dear sister
then the clubber, Mixiao
the next will be my classmate, Eric Chih
Today is Melissa Cheng Wen Xing's and also Ng Pei Chin's
19th will be my sweetheart Kimhui Chu
23rd is Rick, Robin and Xian's birthday
and 24th will be the pink lady, Muneeee Cha's birthday
I have no idea how much I need to spend if I am going to give them present
luckily I'm not

Anyhow
I am sorry if I missed out anyone
I wish you all a very happy and joyful birthday
have a blessed year ahead shall we?

Once again,
Happy Birthday Zhung wan, I love you deeply =)
and for Ng Pei Chin, happy birthday
all the best to you

Aiks
It's almost 4a.m.
my eyes are getting smaller
even they are small enough usually
I want to watch some movie
I want to eat some ice-cream

i c e - c r e a m i n e e d y o u b a d l y

XOXO,
Tzeyee

It's not a farewell thingy

2009-01-15T16:03:00.002+08:00

Aiks
big misunderstanding happens today
luckily it solved

anyhow
tmr tmr tmr I'm going to KL
and tmr tmr tmr is Melissa Cheng Wen Xing's birthday
so we shall meet up today today today

I am so abnormal for now

See you guys on Sunday
if you want to

or else
any other days after that
and we definitely need to meet up on the very first day of CNY!

Mwahs

p/s: Bel is not coming back for CNY, Shan can't make it to meet up.

Lots of Love,
Tzeyee

Spell Tired for me

2009-01-13T21:52:00.002+08:00

13012009 . Tuesday . Raining raining raining

I am damn tired today
and for the few days passed
I think I am finally done my work with Davinci
even though the mascots and the red papers are not done yet
I shall leave them for dearest Juanne and the rest
may God bless them
if I am free to help, I will come again babes
as if I am

anyhow
today I went to Davinci for extra one day as I promised
purposely go there to do some decoration thingy
sadly we had bought not enough tracing paper, so can't do mascot first
well well well
nevermind, then we do the red papers first
at first Juanne and I just simply draw something on it
then I am feeling down as I don't think they will look nice
therefore I showed Li wuen and planning to ask her ask her students to draw, I guess it will be more meaningful
she laugh at my cows real hard
she claims that they look like a pig more than a cow
I wonder
and I admit it as I am not well understand the cow body anatomy
then we go for research and I am thinking that we shall have concept for it too
so we decided to draw any type of cow illustration on every red paper
therefore we can have different style of cow to represent the chinese new year

so I started to draw all the cows
freaking many cows I had drew
as well as Juanne
we are both exhausted

I personally still like my previous idea of doing the one concept a year thingy
aiks
well boss decides everything

I am currently can't think of anything to post
actually I have billions word to tell
guess I am not in the mood

feeling sleepy
tomorrow I shall start help to clean up the house
lough sigh as I am not feeling to do so
but who else can do it?

I love my mom, she sayang me a lot, a lot!

Mwahs

Signing off,
Tzeyee

The Evil Angels

2009-01-12T18:20:00.002+08:00

12022008 . Monday . It's raining

4 days passed, I'm released, like finally
anyhow, tomorrow I still need to go to Davinci center
I could not find any adjective to describe the kids
I am helpless when facing the kid who don't want listen to you, or who don't want to respond you
For few times I feel like slapping them real hard, hard
but what I can do is only put a big fake smile on my face
and repeat all my words
or, looking for help from other teacher there

I am actually having a big plan for Davinci center
for decoration purpose and for marketing purpose
I brief to Li wuen but she looks like doesn't want to spend money and time on that
I, myself have not much time for them as well
so I didn't push my idea hard
chance will comes when time is right, I believe

Ouch
today I woke up at 11 plus, morning
actually I can sleep until even later
but then Baby Lynn woke me up with her very excited tone
Aiks you can't reject a little kid desperate hope to play together ain't

My darling sister and I will go down to KL this weekend
The new clothes I am looking forward to
I am actually buy new clothes once in a year
I take it as a good habit as I can save money for any other things
but I wonder how long I can take it

When CNY is coming near
I am feeling real scared as I have not clean my house yet
my mom is too busy to do so as she needs to take care of her grandchild
and for me
I can't do anything if my mom doesn't finish her part first

Ops forget to tell that I got the letter from LUCT last Sat
Today only I know about this as my mom forgot to tell me
they read my letter before I do
how bad
whatever
anyway the registry informed me to go back campus on 17th Feb for enrolment
and one week later
class starts
omg
I am nervous
soon or sooner
few months later I gonna go for internship
I am seriously shaking, hands shaking
may God bless me, please

am currently watching Shin Chan through Youtube
my childhood memory

so goodbye people
too many things to tell
I leave it for next time!

p/s: I got my finger hurt during my first day working, pathetic.

Signing off,
Tzeyee

Davinci Creative Kids

2009-01-08T01:59:00.002+08:00

tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, another two days more after that
four days
omg I am nervous
I take it as the very first time

four days
wish me luck

may God bless me
may God bless the kids

May God bless you all.

Signing off,
Tzeyee

41 42 46 50

2009-01-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

Passed my Undang test, 46/50
soon or sooner I will go for Amali
then I will get my L license

Aww

Loe messaged me to ask whether I want to replace her for 3 days working at Davinci or not
Ouch kids
I'm starting to headache
hopefully she can finds someone else to go
or else
don't worry Loe, I am still willing to help.

I am still not design anything yet
the short keys, I had forgotten all

omg

p/s: potato chips, yogurt, ice-cream, chocolate please

Signing off,
Tzeyee

The Tears and Blood

2009-01-05T17:54:00.003+08:00

First of all
I would like to wish my Dear sister Happy Belated Birthday
may you have the blessed year ahead and be blissful and healthy
I wished my sister in person but then I forgot to wish her here

Anyhow, we didn't go anywhere for her birthday celebration
we went to her new home
had some penang dishes and a wonderful cake
this is not a cheese cake
not anymore the secret recipe cake
but the cheaper and taste nicer sponge cake
It's plain awesome
It's mouth watering
and I still miss it now
being regreful do not take more slices of it
I would like to have the sponge cake for my coming birthday too
say goodbye and don't see you soon to Secret Recipe cheese cake
seriously

Besides that, I had the best movie of the year on that night itself
I watched Ip Man with my family at sister's place
heart melted and i cried for the last few minutes
I would like to watch it for second, third and even fourth time
the main character Donnie Yen is playing his role real well
I do not see any better man to play this character
****

However
we had a formal dinner yesterday
i personally take it as sister birthday dinner
that's why even I'm full, I am still going to join them
I don't even swallow much food

Since Xiaoxian told me we can actually check the latest result by calling to registry department
I called in the late afternoon
around 4p.m.
My hands are shaking
my legs as well
so do my voice
anyhow
the people picked up the phone is Kak Intan
she is a pretty nice and kind person anyway
by the time she is telling me my result
I feel much better because it is not that worst as what I thought it will be
and at the end of the time
it's actually got improvement
I'm glad

By the way
I got the worst result for my Typography subject
I shall not complain much
but to be frank
He didn't taught us anything
so I shall blame him
I know I'm finding excuses
I don't even spend printing cost for my final typo assignment
aiks my Typography
it's disappointing, seriously

I guess life is not perfect ain't
so I should be thankful for that
Thanks God for letting me live a good life
and I pray for a better life
Thanks for guiding me always
and I pray for keep on guiding me to the good side
I'm sorry if I did something wrong
I'm sorry if I am being mean
I will learn the lessons and promise to be a better person

May God bless all of you

p/s: I am not a Christian, but I believe in the Great Love of God.

Tomorrow is Monday

2009-01-05T02:28:00.003+08:00

Ops today is Monday
I just realize it's 0231 a.m. now

Happy New Year again
today is just 5 of Jan
still new and I still thought now is 2008
I'm still telling people I'm 19 years old
I'm still telling people next year Feb only I go back for new semester

anyhow
all my friends are busy
some are going for work
some are going back for study

I still stay at home
babysitting my niece, reading stuff, preparing for test, cleaning the house

soon and sooner the form 6s are going to university
I'm feeling something negative
I can't believe they are leaving
we are getting old and the next time I come back for holiday
I don't know who to call besides Koh Liwuen
and she's the one who seldom shows up in these few months

busy working and busy clubbing
I know you well Koh Liwuen
drink for life, go go

tsk

Went out with Jasmine Sam Yan Jie today
she came with her boyf, Replay
stick together stick together
faint

then Enson joined us in Sushi King
had two plates then I full
I have no idea why
maybe it's evening that's why
during midnight I never stop for eating

Paid visit to Nose for Nen
she looks really busy
poor thingy has no off day this week
oh yeah met Mi Xiao today
depressed
everytime she met me
the first complete sentence she talked to me is always
" ehh you become fatter liao "
f*ck you Mixiao Yap

Jie and her Replay missing by the time we met Mi xiao
then when they're back
we dump Enson alone there with Nen since Replay has to go back for KL
and I need to join my family for dinner
sorry Enson

and ..

I feel like eating now
and Chipster potato chips appear in my mind.

Aws

With Love,
Tzeyee

Her house, room and bed . My house, bed and dearest

2009-01-01T03:57:00.004+08:00

I went to Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen's place on 27th Dec 2008
reached there at late evening
then I took Monorail to Bukit Bintang to meet up with Reen
after that Reen, Keivyn, Jo and I took Lrt to Kelana Jaya
dearie Shen yee picked us up there and fetch us back to Sunway
since Keivyn sicked and Reen has to take care of him
Shen yee and I went for dinner that night, only we two
She had my first treat in these few months time
you should proud of it dear, and I do not shame of it
we talked and talked
about the Lego thingy and the people
she shorten the story she should tells
nevermind
I got some main point by the way
can have better details later
on that night itself
I got to know Reen's room mates, Si Ying and Miko
I might spell their name wrongly, I don't know
They are pretty friendly, all of them
Si Ying shared her bed with me
but then the first night is freaking toturing
I fall sick on that night
and I do not sleep well even though I am very tired for sitting bus and taking trains

The second day is better
we went to Kim Gary for lunch
and after taking medc
my flu stopped
Reen and her bear accompany me to go for shopping
then during evening Keivyn is tired, so that only Reen and I continue to hang out
we went for Pasta Gohan for dinner
the display there attracts our attention for sometime ago
and finally we went there
since we both are too poor to eat more
we ordered a main course and a side order to share
the pasta is good but then I don't really admire their cheese baked bacon and potato
the bacon tasted like so not bacon, it tasted more like ham to me
I was happy to get two pairs of slippers for myself
therefore I can let my feets breath
they seriously need some air
even the slippers are cheap, I am happy and comfortable to put them on
and at that night I over night at Shen Yee's place
once I step in her house, she brought me to kitchen and keep giving me chocolates
I don't know why but thanks darling
then she showed me the lego, and she keeps playing it, very excited and happy I can see
then she showed me the photos she taken at Taiwan
after that, even I am very sleepy
she still wants me listen to her playing guitar
very hyper kid I can say
she acts like she doesn't know she needs to fetch her mom at 10.30a.m. the next day
I want to kill her
but her bed is so comfy
I had a great night there
Thanks dearie Thanks

The next day
after sent her mom to SS2
Shenyee fetched me to The Curve purposely to get my Nike tops
I can not describe how touch I felt
then we also going to Mid Valley with Reen and Keivyn
I won't forget that day
she keeps missed the road
well well well
as what Keivyn said
atleast now we know where is Kerinchi link
myself never know how to go, yet
It's pretty pathetic when we all are looking at the menu, preparing to order food
Shenyee's mom called and she left to meet her mom
after that she told us she has gathering later at 7p.m. and she has to rush back to Pyramid soon
poor shenyee
she purposely comes all these ways to MidValley
and she don't get to shop then she has to go back to Pyramid
I feel sorry for her
after few hours walking, walking, and shopping
we went to Sweetchat for dessert
pathetic mango milk pudding I had
but the durian pancake is good
you guys should try it
After we headed back to Pyramid
we went for late movie at 11.20p.m.
the movie Cape No.7 is great
4 stars rated from me
at that night itself
Reen and I had a good long chat until midnight
omg I started to miss her so soon

Finally the 4th day, which is 30 Dec
I have to go back home for the woman I love the most in this world's birthday dinner
therefore I didn't go anywhere
after some slow preparation
Reen, Si Ying, Keivyn, Jo and I went to Thai Lagoon for lunch
First I thought Shenyee will comes and picks me up at 1.30p.m.
who knows by the time I finished my lunch she is till not yet appears
so I accompany them to The One for taking result first
what I can say is I might die if I go TOA for study
stress to dead
anyhow
I waited Shenyee until almost 2.30p.m.
but I do not blame her
she is being kind and traffic jam is seriously not her fault
I have no reason to blame anyone but myself
well
I am still late
but then lucky me called the counter and they asked the driver to wait for me
I can tell the driver is really looking for me as I saw him keeps looking around and when I showed him my ticket, he looks relieft and tease me that I am the one who late
I still recognize him
he is the one who drive the bus I took from Kuantan to KL
he is working hard ain't

At the end of the time
I reached Kuantan safely
and I able to catch up my dearest's birthday dinner
I wish her to live healthy, to be happy, to eat good, to rest well, to laugh happily, to cry for joys
she is the most beautiful woman in my heart, she is the world best mom I ever want
she is someone really special for me, she is the only one who will forgive me no matter what I did
she is the one who love me to the bits, to love me with no hesitation, to love me more than herself
what more I can ask for?
GOD gave me the best in the world
I am blissful I am happy I am satisfied for that

Mom, I love you forever and ever.
I could not smile even better when I am holding my mom's hand until I fall asleep

p/s: Nigel asked me to promote his blog, I have no idea how, so click in if you are interested, Nigel's.

Signing off,
Tzeyee

2009

2009-01-01T03:27:00.002+08:00

01012009 . Thursday . It's a brand new day

First of all, I would like to wish all of you Happy New Year
Myself not too excited over it
yet I do not shout for it, I don't even count down

I don't have any big hope for this year
I do not aim for anything
I just want to live happily
I guess I am not that greedy, perhaps

Things changed and will keep changing I bet
people's relationships changed, yet some still keep it well
and the topics changed
many things else
like their hair style, and the way they talk, they act, and even their personality

Another half year later I will go for internship
I seriously shake for that
fear till shake
I rarely can imagine dress in formal for everyday in half year time
and I am going to a company, to work
to experience new things
to face new people
and I have no idea where, when, what and who

I don't have anything interesting in my life so far
I feel all the same all the time
the thing I worry about is really a small matter for everyone
I worry for my weight, my height, my internship, my result, my meals, my hairs, my L license etc
see how free of trouble I am
I don't have anything big to think about or worry about
which I think it's good and wish to keep it on
you may think life like this is dull
but then I appreciate to have dull life like this
I might complain about it a lot, but yet I enjoy life like this
Tears dropped for movies, dramas and books
and I smile for family and friends
I laugh when I see something funny
I like this simple style of life
I don't want a complicated one

I still love people I love, and they love me too
I still hate people I hate, and they sick of me as well
there are still something that will never changes

I love my family
I love my GS
I love my besties
I love my sister, Jia Jia
I love me

always do always will

once again
Happy New Year everyone
may all your dreams come true
and mine too

Hugs,
Tzeyee

Little Loe Loe

2008-12-30T23:52:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Ee Loe

幸福套餐 NO。1♥
01 你的绰号 : 541
02 年龄 : 19
03 生日 : 12 Nov
04 星座 : Scorpio
05 兴趣 : eat, read, sketch, design, chat etc
06 专长 : nothing good

幸福套餐 NO。2♥
01 你有没有喜欢的人? : no
02 是否在交往? : -
03 现在幸福吗? : I am blissful for having my family with me, and my besties around
04 如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事? : nothing for now
05 如果有天，你爱的人跟你告白的话? : I will tell him I feel the same too

幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: Little Loe Loe
02 他是你的 : My bestie
03 他的个性? : she's friendly she's kind and she's blur
04 认识他多久? : 12 years perhaps
05 你觉得他怎样? : someone you will never regret to be her friend
06 你想对他说什么 : ehh go yc lur

幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 : dramas
02 最爱的音乐 : Eason Chan's songs
03 最爱的季节 : I hate only Summer, not Summer Choo
04 最爱的卡通： Disney's
05 最爱的人 : My mom
07 最爱的国家 : New Zealand
08 最爱的天气 : Windy and Cloudy

幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望:
第一个愿望： Be with my family all the time happily and safely, from live to dead
第二个奢望： Never gain fat
第三个梦想： To have my dreams come true, I know I am greedy
02 你是很专一的人吗 : you bet
03 最深刻的回忆? : many things to list out
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : I don't
05 你很爱微笑吗 : no one hate it, I think
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗 : no
07 妄想什么样的生活 : I want life that I have nothing big to worry about
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 : No

调卷到此结束‘点人者请至于被点者的留言版’ 告知被点名了。请列出于十位被点者：
1 Melissa Cheng Wen Xing
2 Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen
3 Belinda Chong Ser Chi
4 Voon Voon Yong
5 Kok Quin Chow

I don't know who else to tag, do it if you want to

p/s: I miss Quin all in sudden, badly.
p/s 2: will update my daily life soon.

Signing off,
Tzeyee

G dom

2008-12-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

26 Dec 2008 . Friday . Rainy day

I am going to KL for meeting up with my best mate, Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen tmr

I nervous, I excited, I curious and

I miss G-dom

p/s: shop shop shops

Supper mission Failed

2008-12-22T03:15:00.004+08:00

22 Dec 08 . Monday . How am I gonna know the weather

I am starving, seriously
but then I am feeling guilty to eat at this late, even though I do this often cough
since my mom woke up then I ran to her and asked for opinion
my question is 'you think I should go for maggie mee or some hotdogs is better?'
and she didn't answers my question
she told me not to eat, if not I will be really fat

I don't feel like eating anymore, GOD I'm starving

I am now waiting the clock turns to 6a.m.
then I will get my bed to sleep on
I am not complaining, I use to sleep late anyway

I am so bored, no one else update their blogs
make me read the really old posts
I am now reading KennySia 2005's posts, you bet

I am downloading stories to read
my life is just too boring
and I had finished 3 stories of 楚留香
I dunno how to translate it
Pretty good

I am lusting for meeting up GS
I love every souls there
and if they are all busy, I am okay with not meeting up
but then they are all free
how come we seldom meet even we are all complaining for life is boring
Pathetic

I am suddenly craving for roast duck
I am so regretting for not order this few hours ago
by the way
I had the most delicious chicken chop in Kuantan just now
in fact, I should really try any other good food
but I don't take risk
because it never turns out good
I know it, omg
anyway
I am also craving for Carl's Junior French Fries
slurp

mentioning food is so not good for now
Mom, it's all your fault ='(

p/s: omg today is 22nd!

Hungry Tzeyee

Adorable him

2008-12-21T15:20:00.004+08:00

21 Dec 2008 . Sunday . Raining and not Raining

I called Ah Thiam, finally
he sounds so not friendly, but in fact, he is good in person
so not much complains ain't
anyhow, I went to listen undang yesterday
It's bored, totally
and I met few Afzan juniors there
I can still recognize them
but I don't know them

Anyway I know one new girl there
Afzan junior too
At first I am the only one who are talking and asking questions
it's weird when you asked somebody tons of question and she still never asks your name and anything else
atlast, few hours later only she started to talk
and guess what
she is my senior, Siew Yan's sister, Siew Wai
I heard about her as some of my friends know her
world is just so small ain't?

I thought I can get the P license by holiday end
but Ah Thiam claimed that it is impossible
so I can only get the L license first
then the next sem break only I start the class
Ouch, lucky or unlucky me?

I was very nervous over it
or I should say I am still very nervous over it
even I am just going to listen undang
I was shaking the night before that
and I went to bed early, end up slept at 4a.m.
I know the time because I watch the clock
Silly me

Yesterday was freaking tiring
I never wake up so early among this month
7.15a.m. is too early
and I didn't bring any water any food any sweets to there
uncle came early, he told me 8a.m. but he called me at 7.32a.m. and told me he reached
until 4.30p.m. plus
My stomach all flats until I have my late lunch
Pretty torturing

Woo LaLaa I slept at around 10p.m. yesterday
and I woke up at 10something today too
I was like ' woah, how come '
but it's good
sister's Oscar came, until Tuesday
I bet I should really go and have a hairdo as soon as possible
Few months I never do something to my hairs
and I think it's awful

Later night going to have family dinner
Going to treat my stomach well
I seldom torture it, she will cries

p/s: I saw Chiao Yuet today, her lil bro is adorable <3

XO,
Tzeyee

The List

2008-12-17T18:02:00.004+08:00

17 Dec 2008 . Wednesday . Raining

I want to watch movie, movies
therefore I checked the gsc website
and I found plenty movies I want to watch

First of all,
Bolt is the one I want to watch badly

next coming is Yes Man
I like Jim Carrey
the way he acts is funny

another one is The Day The Earth Stood Still
Keanu Reeves will act, it means everything

Well, for Cantonese movie
I want to watch IP man, seriously

besides, movie like Wild Child, Beverly Hills Chihuahua and Doraemon the movie are what I am willing to pay for

There are so many movie to watch
why I am still so boring?

GS! Act something please

p/s: I still not yet call Ah Thiam, nervous

Tzeyee

O424 a.m.

2008-12-17T04:22:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling bored
wanted to eat Mcd
who knows only have Maggie Curry
but then Darling Doris promised to bring me out for Mcd tomorrow
it's very sweet of her

I am so boring
have nothing good to do
I read blogs
I commented photos and status
and nothing else left

why? why so boring?
maybe I should really call Ah Thiam
I don't want learn driving

someone please update their blog
I need something to read
I can't sleep yet
just had Maggie Curry and I am very full now
*burp*

p/s: I tried to design something but then I am totally clueless

Tzeyee

Speed

2008-12-17T00:44:00.003+08:00

17 Dec O8 . Wednesday . it's not raining yet

She cried
right beside me
I had no idea what to do, how to comfort her
I hope she is doing fine now
you must have no idea how much we care about this girl
and she is never a tough one

We love you babe, tears shouldn't wasted for him

and for Cha Muneeeeeeeeeeeee

I miss you too
but then I should remind you

you forgot to wish me happy birthday

heh !

p/s: suddenly craving for Spicy McDeluxe again

XO,
Tzeyee

Melissa Cheng Wen Xing

2008-12-16T19:31:00.008+08:00

Oh my God
my baby is coming back on Thursday night from Perth
and we probably can meet up on Friday

movie perhaps?
I'm lusting for watching Bolt =)

Zhung wan
I miss you I miss you I Miss you

she's Hot and Adorable ( he is not her's boy )

every boy's heart melted <3

Mine melted too.

p/s: I can't log in MSN, why?

I rarely talk

2008-12-16T02:44:00.004+08:00

16122008 . Tuesday . unknown weather

Time flies
I had almost a month holiday
and I did nothing
I do not read a good and meaningful book
I do not learn anything I promised with Quin o Quin
I do not learn to drive yet, and I seriously don't feel like to
I do not help my mom to do anything
and the list go on

Anyway
I still catch the chance to meet up with dears and darlings, and some friends
until now, I manage to see the faces of Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen, Jasmine Sam Yan Jie and her boy, Replay, Nicole Yap Kit Yeng, Doris Tan Chui Peng, Joanne Liom Chu En, Enson Yee Xing Nan, Shirlene Lim Shik Lin and her boy, Lucius, Koh Li Wuen, Lim Ee Loe, Lim Meei Siew and her boy, Jern Foong, Weapon and Kenneth.
Suppose to have Qiao Yi's name on the list
guess what
she went for shopping when we are trying to inform her for the outing
and Mandy Kong Mien Yuh
I think you can throw ur handset away
seriously
you never pick up call and never repliy messages and calls

Yesterday night we went Teluk Cempedak for a drinks
Ee Loe and I reached slightly early
therefore we went to the beach and had a talk
We talked about study thingy, as in she not yet chooses the college/university and the course to take, and we talked about some old schoolmates, we talked about her baby Lawrence, hope it will rest in peace
talk with Ee Loe make me think of Wen Xing, Melissa Cheng
she is my best friend
and I love her a lot, she means many thing to me
what is the most excited part is, she is coming back real soon!
two days more then she will be in here, not staying away from me more than 300km perhaps
I am starting to be excited =)

Oh mentioned about the outing yesterday
I was craving for Mcdonald's burger badly
I am lusting for Spicy Mcdeluxe
then I saw the Prosperity burger on the menu
I never try it before
and I want to
therefore I asked Jasmine's Replay for opinion since days ago I am watching him eating the burger
he loves the burger and he strongly recommend it
he wonders if I like spicy food
and I definitely love spicy food
but then when I have the first bite on it
I feel like killing him, sorry Jie
the spicy is not the chili type of spicy
it is all because of the pepper
I Hate Black Pepper like no others do
I threw the burger when I only finished half of it
urh ..
nightmare

Replay
it is very hard for me to believe on your taste anymore
but for sure you had made your best decision in your life for falling in love with Jasmine Sam Yan Jie
she is priceless =)

Er ..
I can't think of anything to type now
Black Pepper sauce stuck in my mind

good night

p/s 1: I miss GS.
p/s 2: I still not yet read the book that Quin gave me as present =)

Signing off,
Tzeyee

Another night

2008-12-07T14:36:00.002+08:00

07122008 . Sunday . Raining

Hi I'm Tzeyee
It's raining cats and dogs here
guess monsoon it is now

I am now still in Kuantan
which means I cannot wave goodbye to Meei Siew face to face in KLIA tmr
goodbye Mecha, enjoy ur days there and comes back soon for gathering

Yesterday Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen is back
Oh babe I miss you
then we met up yesterday night
She and Enson came to pick me up in ten minutes time after the phone call
Oh my my
I just woke up and had my late dinner
which means I don't have enough time to prepare myself
the messy hairs is the point if you wonder

We went to JR one
the atmosphere there doesn't changes
the only changes is I no longer know the faces showed up there
pathetic ya know
it symbolizes I am so outdated with the Kuantan teenagers life or else, I'm getting older

I am an adult now.

Oh No.

Met Jo Ann yesterday too
just for awhile
her hairs is getting shorter
and Thanks GOD she doesn't complains me yesterday
I'm getting bored when every time we met
she surely will complains anything of me, anything
being so mean is not a good thing, never

I just realized I rarely talk these days
I am so out of topic
is my life that boring?
well in the other hand I enjoy it to the bits
simple life is always good ain't
it might be a little bit dull
well I have much less problem to think of

I am looking forward to watch a movie
perhaps I should ask Reen later
or tmr
It's still raining now
best weather to sleep

so sweet dream everyone

I shall go to bed now

p/s: movie movie movies

Signing off,
Tzeyee

Freedom is Everything

2008-12-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

06122008 . Saturday . Unknown weather

My oh my
My gang finished their last paper two days ago
and finally we met up on that day as well
we had a long chat
or else I should say I heard them had a long chat
I rarely talk on that night
not really in the mood
Thanks to the Eczema beasts and the very sensitive skin
anyway
I'm happy enough to meet up with them
even not all of them but part of them
and luckily catch up the chance to meet Meei Siew before she goes for some place I forgotten

I don't have anything interesting to share
and nothing much I can tell

Anyway
Congratulation to people who finished SPM and STPM
you guys have a long and free holiday until next year
a freaking long one
even longer than mine
spend it wisely and don't waste the chance to have enough fun
I'm here all the time ya know =) call me

Cheerio!

p/s: All the best to you, Enson.

XOXO,
Tzeyee

It's not a Book

2008-12-02T00:35:00.002+08:00

02122008 . Tuesday . Unknown weather

This is a short update,

I am home for 6 days and another 2 months plus to go
and these 6 days
I never meet up with any of my friends
yet, I just step out from my house twice with my family
wonder how I spent my time?
No, I do not sleep all the time
I just addicted to a story, a long story which I got it from my house mate
it is now in my handset, and I was holding it more than 12 hours a day
plus I do not bother any message because of it
well, I still pick up phone call for God's sake
imagine how good the story plot is
but it is not a great one
so don't expect too much shall we?

Life like this is good and meaningless
It's relaxing and you have no motivation to finish anything
sister advices me to take part some competition
meanwhile, she is doing her design all the time when I am awake
I do not hear from anyone in my class
hope you guys are doing fine
parents asked me to get a driving license during this sem break
I not really want it honestly
I don't have the gut to drive, and I never excited about it
so I will wait until they rush me to do that

Baby Lynn is learning thing fast
and I can't wait to see the next baby darling
April it is
I am excited
hope everything is going fine

May GOD bless everyone of you.

XOXO,
Tzeyee

May GOD bless them

2008-11-25T09:57:00.004+08:00

25112008 . Tues . Sun

Yesterday . Today . Tomorrow

May The Great GOD bless the mother and baby
They all deserved a better life

We will Love them forever and ever
no matter what
I swear to You and myself

Tomorrow is the day
Tomorrow is the day I'm going back to home sweet home
I am so regret to stay here for so long after the phone call and messages
I'm sorry

Anyway
I haven't pack my things yet
and haven't clean up my hard disk thingy
I am so lazy
and there are lotsa things to check

I am wondering the next time I come back
will I have the same room mate
since I am not close with her
I guess she is going to move out sooner or later
I am nervous, seriously
I am sick of new room mate
have to communicate with her
try to make the things doing fine
all these things make my head spine

what is the worst I can get?
I don't want to know please

I am out of word now
maybe I should do something to the hard disk since sister's Oscar is coming soon
to pick up my computer and camera

Peace.

XOXO,
Tzeyee

Oh

2008-11-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

Nooooooooo burger for tonight =(

Burgers

2008-11-23T20:32:00.002+08:00

23112008 . Sunday . Rain

It's 8.34p.m.
while I'm waiting the clock turn to 9p.m.
I got the sudden urge to blog

Later I'm going to buy burgers
and I'm actually indulge in that
I was keep forcing my house mates to accompany me there
and until now
both of them are into it too
or else I thought they are
at least my 'no supper allowed' house mate decided to try one tonight
don't you feel proud for that, when you are able to influence someone to eat with you
I'm proud, seriously

These few days only I realized there are months I never do a hair cut
It's too long and out of shape
am very unhappy about this
it makes my face looks even rounder
I hate this happens especially when my face is almost like a bowling ball
as how the grandpa Ah Tim said

am confusing should I change a new hair style
people know me well should know I hate changes
but then it's bored to have a same hair style for 2 years plus
what should I do?
Everything is still in consideration

I am very excited for tmr outing
it is all because I can eat something better
I want to eat this, I want to eat that
and I definitely want to have the mango sorbet again
Heaven =)

15 minutes to go
maybe I should call back home now
long time never talk to my sister
don't know how is she doing at home now
hope everything will be fine
because I'm going back on Wed

p/s: I'm so nervous for tmr, pray for me.

Legally 19

2008-11-23T12:14:00.028+08:00

23112008 . Sunday . Sun

No No No
My birthday is not on 23 Nov
but 12 Nov
It is a pending post
I would like to thank the people who wished me, who celebrated with me and who still remember it

Elson Tan, Sean Lee, Pei Chinn Ng, Family, Melissa Cheng Wen Xing, Kim Hui Chu, Jia Ying Chua, Jia Jia Yong, Oscar Chang, Niegel Gan, Doris Tan, Hui Ting Tan, Geraldine Tan Jing Wen, Kok Quin Chow, Shiau Fong Tang, Stella Tey Ren Fang, Ting Ting Boon, Wan Jou Tan, Anice Lau Ming Li, Ying Wei Foong, Eric Vooi, Nick Wu Rui Di, Magie Ng, Jet Lee, Marcus Sew, Min Yuann Chew, Wie Nie Sia, Adora Chloe, Yang Yang Tan, Hao Yi Ko, Kai Yeah, Amy Chew, Li Wuen Koh, Mi Xiao, Teik Ming Lee, Poh Fen, Jason Khoo Chun Meng, Jasmine Sam Yan Jie, Wai Shan Chim, Elaine, Chu En Liom, Kit Yeng Yap, Anis, Christeen, Caryn Ling, Rick Ng, Grace Tan, Voon Voon, Carey Choy, Xiao Xian Lai, Carmen Liew, Zanne Tey, Shou Jing Pang, Shirlene Lim Shik Lin, Lucius Lee, Shen Yee Leong, Kuso Kelly Hoh Ai Reen, Keivyn, Hui Hui Lee, Wei Yun Goh, Ee Loe Lim

I was touched, for the surprises, even though both failed and for the cakes and the heart for doing these
The happiness is very hard to describe, or I shall say no word in the dictionary could describes it well
I had good cakes and good meals for my birthday, nothing I should ask for more ain't

It's a very memorable birthday I have, thank you to you all
* huggies and kisses *

I had my first birthday meal here, during the day before my birthday

This mushroom soup is good

Rich garlic bread

The main course we shared and the best is the potato wedges, pathetic huh

and I had the worst Lemon Tea there

At the night itself, we went to The Garden

we went here to have dinner, and sister's Oscar joined us too

The side dish, 'Tian bu La'

Sister and her Oscar's choice

My choice

Zoom in

Another Zoom in

The last zoom in

Then on my birthday itself, my classmates and I went to Sunway pyramid
and guess what we have for our lunch?
Subway it is

Spicy Italian

Then we head to Sushi Zanmai for our dinner
it is very hard to choose which restaurant to go when they are ten people with different kind of opinions

and I have not much food on that night
wonder why, maybe the horror movie freak me out
'The Coffin', advise you not to watch it
I was so clueless about what is happening from the beginning
then I close my eyes after the first ten minutes until the movie end
no one like it

Unagi sushi with reasonable price

and i had 4 different flavour birthday cakes this year

First is the Durian Durian, but I only have one slice of it
from sister

2662137537_d2fccf0265 [Image]. 2008. Google Image Search.flickr.com/photos/41105002@Noo/2662137537 (accessed by 23 Nov, 08)

The second one, Blueberry cake from Secret Recipe, you guys know how it taste like

The 3rd one, Tiramisu from Bread Talk

If you can see it well,
check this

Tiramisu_b [Image]. 2008. Bread Talk. http://www.breadtalk.com/cakes1.htm#1 (accessed by 23 Nov, 08)

The 4th birthday cake from the dearest, I love you Kelly Hoh Ai Reen, and Ham yu =))

My class and me *heart them*

again, and it's Marcus's turn, bye Jet

not forgetting my precious one

Kuso Kelly Hoh Ai Reen
and Ham Yu Leong Shen Yee

I Heart you guys, a lot

p/s 1: Half of the GS forgot my birthday, which is very disappointing
p/s 2: Pictures taken in Sunway Pyramid is all blur off, realized that only when I see them on screen
p/s 3: Love the presents I got from you and the favourite piece is definitely the handmade silkscreen T-shirt from reen and her bear, Keivyn
p/s 4: Happy Belated Birthday to my Dearest Jasmine Sam Yan Jie, I wished you, but I want to wish again

Jasmine Sam Yan Jie, you know how much I Love you

How's Life

2008-11-21T00:57:00.004+08:00

22112008 . Sat . Unknown weather

Hello everyone, how's life?
mine is good, but far not enough
semester 4 ended, finally
and I will be home on next Wed
not so soon yet it's not too far
I seriously miss my family especially my mom
I miss her badly and I desperately want to see Baby Lynn
that's why I am going back earlier than I thought

Life in here is not good
the food here is totally a disaster
I wonder how could I survive for such a long time
and I am still willing to pay for it
Tried the food in the new stall on the upstairs of plaza yesterday
it doesn't taste as good as others promote
but it is much better than any other stalls here

The life without assignment here is much boring than I expect it to be
I lost the motivation to design anything
and the improve skill plan, forget about it
I am only watching drama, anime, reading, eating and hanging around in the house
that's all
I can't manage to go out too often as I'm broke
and since I promised to go out with my house mates
I am not able to ask others friend for outing anymore
sadden, next semester perhaps

I miss my friends a lot, the classmates, the friends, the besties, the GS
*hug*
Happy Holiday
all the best for who are still studying
and for the SPM and STPM candidates, I know you can do it

p/s How could you, you and You forgot my birthday !?

Love,
Tzeyee

am I too greedy?

2008-11-03T15:09:00.003+08:00

03112008 . Monday . Sun

Today I am very down
so ignore this if you sick of emo post, will you?

I just finished one module today at 12.15p.m.
I'm glad it's over
but I wonder will I see her again on coming semester
I think the exam is funny
lecturer treated us like students sit for SPM exam

sister called just now
had a long talk
I'm feeling so tired
physically and mentally
I'm trying my best okay
stop talking about it over and over again
just two years, two freaking years then everything is over
OK?

Am very stressful currently
I don't feel good and I hate this to happen
I need something more interesting in my life
now I understand how harsh design industry is
when you can't think of new idea, when you unable to design out something in your mind
when you find all your hard works are rubbish, when you can't come out something good
when you wasted so much money but you still failed the outputs ..
you might almost gone crazy
sometime I really like design but then I hate it too
I lost the passion in it, and I just want to take a good long rest
escape from all these things
the troubles, the questions, the trues
I just need some peace
a real one

I want to live healthy
I want to have a normal skin kind
I want to sleep well without interrupt
I want to go to bed at 10p.m. and sleep until 10a.m.
I want to sleep with light-off
I want to keep my alarm off and my handphone stay away from me
I want to eat some chinese homemade dishes
I want to get the to-do-lists out of my wall
I want to be with my besties who make me feeling so comfortable to stay with
I want to have a heart to heart talk
I want to have some secrets to tell
I want to read as much as I want
I just want to be happy
am I too greedy?

In fact, I didn't ask for luxury stuff
I never wish to be millionaire
I just want to be happy and no worries

again
am I too greedy?

it's 1529p.m.
I didn't touch my assignments yet
but then I wish to go to bed
I told you,
I'm tired

Signing off,
Tzeyee

Design Management Exam

2008-11-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

02112008 . Sunday . Raining

I am not happy

I suppose to study now for tomorrow exam
but then I got an offline message from the one I love
I am feeling so harsh and just need to split it out

I am feeling so stress currently
no matter how I act and how I do my things
I am so stress and I'm having constipation problem again, start from few days ago
I need some rest, the real one
to relax my mind and my soul as well
but you don't give me a rest
you don't

I understand your condition
I was talking nicely at first
but then you pissed me off, like really
I threaten you?
I don't even want to talk about it after that
you do disappoint me
not by stopping me but the way you talk
I told you to stop it
I don't want to see the killing words from you anymore
I asked you to forget about it, I don't go, I don't want to listen anymore
just enough okay

but then
you didn't
you still want to split some words to hurt my feeling
I'm having exam tomorrow
I need concentrate on my study tonight
do you listen to me?
you don't
you still dowan to let it be
you just want to talk it out
don't talk like I am a girl who go party every night
always asked money to buy my own stuff like I am the daughter of banker
I know I'm NOT

I wish I never talked to you about this
I thought you will know I am actually trying my best to be a goody girl
if I am your very disappointing sister
sorry, just leave me alone
if you are feeling burdened
just two years more you have to take care of me
I just need some peace
I just dowan to be even stressful
let me love you more, can?

signing out,
Tzeyee

stay away.

My family

2008-11-02T10:50:00.002+08:00

02112008 . Sunday . Unknown weather

It's 1049 a.m.
and I did nothing yet
yesterday I spent whole day to cut the things
and my fingers hurt, I was can't hold the cutter properly at the end of the time
can you imagine whole day only cutting papers
and the outcome is not really good
I done folding my packaging anyway
but then I wish I never, you know why

It was so hard to squeeze my six packaging into the big one
and now I know sticker is not the only reason why my packaging will be so hard to fold straight
lamination is another reason
seriously, I'm not finding excuses

tomorrow I have final exam for design management
and I not even done the CIS yet
not to mention the journal thingy
I so hate Sunday because the next day is Monday
I'm so frustrated
assignments are waiting behind
and I don't feel like doing it, at all

Today when I woke up
I miss my family in sudden

I reminded it had been long time I never talk to my Dear sister
I have no idea how is she doing recently
but then I have no time, or should say no mood to make a phone call
plus I think she should has a good rest
I love you sis, I know you're reading this
and I miss my niece too
even though I don't feel like taking care of her
refuse to follow behind her every step
tired of stopping her to touch this, to eat that, to go here, to run there
I just love her
I love to see her face, to hear her voice, to have her around me
I miss my parent too
I realized the longer I went to study at here
my dad talks less to me
he doesn't know what to talk to me
every time I called back
he was just greet me then pass the phone to my mom
if I said I want to talk to him, he will only says few more sentence then still pass the phone to my mom
I know he loves me, but I need more contact, more conversation
my mom, I don't know why
I love her the most but then I scream towards her the most
maybe it is that I know she loves me the most, and we will forget about it the next morning
and my darling sister
I was pissed off with her yesterday
sometime we get to be really close, but then sometime we found each other are so unbearable
I love her, she is my sister and she loves me too, I know that
I miss my bro in law too, miss the jokes he makes with Dear sister
I know he loves my sister a lot, and I glad he is
what will be happier when you found out your sister has a man who loves her that much?

My my, it is now 1105a.m.
I think I should go back to the Corporate Identity Standards now
in fact
I just want to get my head back to my bed

Help me.

XOXO,
Tzeyee

First of November

2008-11-01T00:49:00.008+08:00

01112008 . Saturday . Sun

0246a.m.

It had been so long time I never post up something new, as mentioned before, I promised to post up the studio shooting photos but end up I was too lazy to do so.
You know how torturing it is when you need to convert the RAW files into JPEG, and your hard disk space is just not enough
So, I decided to post up only my finals
A very simple layout, and yesss my first idea was failed as my photoshop skill is primary school level
Therefore I came out another idea, and I personally think it is better
The purpose of this advertising is to urge the public to blog their stories, with the blank paper and the face expression, it urges audience to fill in the blank with interesting stories to complete the thing
It is all about BLOG IT! That's what we want.

:: picture credit to Keivyn and Kelly Hoh Ai Reen, the models.

Anyway, life becomes busier, and things become more complicated.
I done no assignment, and I have no idea when they will be done
Packaging got some problem with the colors, fortunately I got things fixed today in Digital Trend
Thanks to William and Michelle, yes William I do know to select all now, don't shake your head anymore okay
Not forgetting Color Conception also, Chee Sing, Alex and Kai Yeh (he resigned month ago), oh yes and Vincy, they provide the best customer service and being real kind
Every time when I go there, whole day spent there, it's just like another place to gather the classmates, and we treat it as home

Well well, hard works never end, yet.
I still got lots of assignment waiting me to do it, no no, tomorrow only I do that okay
plain tired
Let's check what I need to do
Design Management Journal Design Management CIS
Basic Illustration 10 Metaphores
Basic Illustration Final Color sketches
Basic Illustration 1st exercise
Basic Illustration Portfolio
Basic Illustration Research
Typography Flash cards
Typography Journal
Design Heritage Bauhaus Essay Design Heritage Journal
Photography Journal
Computer Graphic Newsletter
Packaging Finishing Packaging Poster Packaging Booklet
Design Studies Journal
Exhibition Preparation

the red highlighted symbolized must be done by Monday

Oh I'm so tired
As mentioned before, went to Digital Trend today
spent time there until the shop closed, 7.30p.m. something
then we went 'Ru Jia' restaurant for dinner
good recommendation from Reen
I prefer this if compare to Canton Bay
anyway, food there is reasonable and acceptable
some of them is delicious too
After the meal, we went to TGV as we are craving movie to rest our mind
not much choice so we decided to watch Best Friend's girl as I desperately want to watch Kate Hudson and Quin think it is the best choice too
The movie is funny but aiyor too many scenes cut, should go and buy the pirated DVD
Ops

I'm effing tired now and can't think of anything to blog
so let's end this post with the tag thing

Tagged by Quin O Quin week ago

Part One
1. What is the relationship of you and her?
classmate and friend

2. Your five impressions towards him/her.
She's smart, She's tough, She's independent, She's confident, She's creative.
3. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you.
During semester two, she is willing to help me to cut the circle out as she knows me can't handle it (Reen helped too)

Last semester, when we are doing the CD packaging, she helped me to fix the packaging which I screwed up even though it was 4a.m. in the midnight, and she wasted her priceless sleeping time to help me. Not forgetting tomorrow afternoon is the presentation.

Once again, wasted her two whole days just to accompany me for printing. Willing to wait for me to fix my designs, giving me precious suggestion, offer to help for cutting when I am darn nervous when rushing.

Helped me to cut and mount my posters during last semester when I cut my finger, not to mention that 15 minutes later is the final presentation.

I appreciate it a lot, and I have nothing to return your kindness besides treat you as true friend with my all heart.

4. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you.
Eason Chan is darn cute (Eason Chan is way too attractive *melted*)

5. If she/he become your lover, you will...
I can't imagine this, totally.

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will...
like dead fish, never want to be her enemy.

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on...
Let's just skip this question.

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is...
I don't know, I never think about it.
9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
Treat her a dinner?
10. The overall impression of her/him is?
Smart.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Weirdo.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
You should ask others instead of asking me.

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
It can be a lot.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
No idea about this.

Part Two
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state the rules clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

1. I don't let anyone to touch my bed, even my parent.
2. I am very emotional.
3. Re-print is like part of my life.
4. I read strangers' blog and I'm know their life details.
5. I cry easily when I watch movie and drama, even animation.
6. When it comes to food, I spend money like my dad is a banker, which is not.
7. I love to eat meat, a lot.
8. I love my family the most, and I get angry of them most.
9. I like to complain the people around, but actually I like them seriously. No offence.
10. I hate people lie to me as I know I can accept the truth, but when I know somebody just can't pretend nothing happened, I lie them with no doubt.
11. I will keep the secret as long as you asked me to shut up, no matter how serious the case is (so don't tell me if you have sin)
12. I like design yet I hate design.
13. I not really like the singers who has won Eason Chan in the awards.
14. I don't wear skirt to class as it is very troublesome to get in the bus, end up everyone in class never see me wearing skirt.
15. Seeing doctor is just a routine in my life.

I tag:
Melissa
Belinda
Ee Loe
Voonvoon

For your information, now is Saturday morning 1123a.m.
which mean yes I need to do my assignment now

Bye bye

p/s I seriously love her and miss her, and I met her yesterday =) for awhile ..

my house mate laugh so hard at this picture
she feels I look funny seriously. I don't know why

Sorry, just ignore this post.

2008-10-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

FUCK YOU DESARIA VILLA
I HATE you for close the electricity in all sudden
Thanks to you my half day hard work all gone, and I seriously won't forget this.

Be responsible to your employees, and check your system on time,
if tmr is the due date, you are not safe now.

Asshole!

Tagged and Dermatographism.

2008-10-17T22:55:00.004+08:00

Tagged by Bel

Instructions: Remove 1 question (any from below) and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What are your nicknames?
541 and Ten dollar.

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Eating good foods.

3. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
Disgusting food.

4. Is there someone in your heart right now?
No.

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No, how will I survive if I have no money to buy food?

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
People I love a lot.

7. What do you feel like doing right now?
Go to the bed and sleep until tmr ends.

8. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Unless I love him that deep.

9. List out 3 goods points of the person who tagged them!
Friendly, kind and attractive.

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Too much to list out, but loving each other is the must.

11. What are the things that will make you think that he/she is bad?
Oh it's depends. People I love did something so wrong I might forgive, people I don't love did a tiny mistake, I boycott him/her for years.

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Delicious food, am I too greedy?

13. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy.

14. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
If want to change, then change every bits of it, if not, then bear with it.

15. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Being more independent, perhaps.

16. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
I am Goh Tze Yee.

17. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
My family.

18. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Pass.

19. Why should we think of a new question?
Guess we are just too free, which totally wrong.

I tag:
only Quin.

Finally I'm back.
17102008 . Friday . Raining

Hiye readers, so glad I'm able to load in the page, and had a good time reading your posts.
Today is memorable yet tiring, shall upload some pictures on next post, which will be around next week.
Anyway, why memorable?
Because Kelly Kuso Hoh Ai Reen came LUCT to pay a visit, as well as being my photography final assignment model, with her boy, Keivyn.
Anyway, I'm so glad to see her in the campus again, it's like we go back to last year, when we are still staying together, and in one same class, one same group and we spent almost every minute together =)
Time flies and now I'm staying with my third room mate.
I always wonder is it I am that hard to stay with, I guess I don't bite ain't?
Pathetic, one of you transfered to TOA and one of you just stop it. People I love, people I like, all gone. Leave me with one shy room mate and we don't chat (we talked) even though we stay together for almost 2 months.

Well well, The ms Penguin and mr Bear are just the natural poser, the photo shooting session is going smooth, if you ignore the setting part and the troublesome hot shoe adapter.
Specially credits for Shiau Fong and Ting Ting for helping the setting from the early morning until afternoon.
Not forgetting others like Quin, Wan Jou and Eric for helping me as well.
As for Stella and Yang Yang, I'm so glad you guys didn't break the lamp, thanks for willing to take the high risk for it. And I will never pay if you really broke it =) just kidding.

Even I appreciate my classmates' help a lot, my models can post even better when they all gone.
What can I say? if I got next assignment for photo shooting, you two can never run from me, never.

Anyway, had a good time in Wings coffee with reen. It had been long time we were sitting together in the cafe there, and campus life without you, I never go in Wings more than 5 times.
So come back lar, not for study, just to visit me more often =)

I am running out of word to blog now, guess I'm just too sleepy, so I don't even check the grammar, spelling and vocab as well. Forgive me for anything wrong, I just barely see part of my words here.

So, good night everyone, tomorrow is a tough day.

XOXO,
Tzeyee

p/s I got a new skin allergy problem which is Dermatographism. I wonder why this kind of thing always happens on me.

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