short update

Hello
It has been long time I never sign in here
as I said, I am busy

I lost the motivation to blog
so many things to update and too many things need to be done
so I'm here to talk a little, before I forget

I have finished my internship with Slipknot
and I am now working on the assignments and freelance job with the company
life ain't getting any better if compare to the pass few months
but I'm home
this is important

And yes, I have a lump on my neck since one month ago
it was big and hard
and now it's getting smaller, and softer
was supposed to do operation
but since it is getting smaller
doctor said we shall decide about this two weeks later
think it will be okay, so no worries

Bestie's brother passed away yesterday
it's saddening and
heartbreaking

I didn't cry though, I still feel like he's alive
I have no idea why I still don't get the truth that I will not see his face anymore
it's too sudden, and too unbelievable

I have no idea how to comfort her
because it seems ridiculous if I thought she will be fine in short period
I will leave her alone and catch her whenever she needs me to

This is life
and I hate life






goodbye.